Percy Jackson And Sadie Kane: A Forbidden Love

chapter 35

Sadie pov

Percy leaned in and closed the distance between our lips. My breath hitched. I couldn't think. I felt like my insides were melting. Is it normal to feel like that?

For a moment I was static. Then slowly, unthinking, I raised my hands and wrapped them around his neck and returned the kiss. When we withdrew, I was still in shock that THAT had just happened. I kissed Percy Jackson. No, Percy Jackson kissed ME.

I stared at him. "Percy..." I started.

"Ok, I know that must have been awkward for you. I'm sorry, Sadie, it's just...I..." He faltered. Why was he apologizing?

"Percy, why are you apologizing? I'm glad that happened." I said. He blinked.

"Seriously? Cause I thought, maybe, I thought that you...I mean...you might not feel...feel the same."He said.

"What are you trying to say? What do you feel for me, Percy?" I asked.

Percy stood up and ran his hand through his already messy hair, a gesture which I always found hot. He looked at me for a minute or so, with a conflicted expression on his face. Then he slumped his shoulders and sighed.

"Nothing. Just, forget that happened." He said, turning around, so I could only stare at his back in confusion. I stood up abruptly. I couldn't help it anymore.

"Forget it happened? Forget what happened? The fact that we met? Or the fact that we kissed? Or the fact that you have some kind of feelings for me but ignore them because I'm not good enough for you?" I said. I know that was mean and totally not meant for a sweetheart like Percy, but what else was I supposed to think?

Percy turned to face me and his eyes widened in something that looked like horror. "Oh, gods no. Sadie, it's not because you're not good enough for me, it's because I'm not good enough for you." Percy said.

"How can you even say that? Percy, you're amazing! You're perfect." I said.

"No. No I'm not. I'm stupid, dangerous and reckless and my recklessness has almost gotten people killed. It's probably because of my recklessness that Anna-" His voice wavered toward the end and his expression showed devastation. Then he straightened up, composing himself. "Anyway, I don't repeat that mistake again. I can't risk your life. Not at any cost."

I honestly had no idea how being with Percy could be life threatening in any way. He just saved my sorry butt from drowning a few hours ago, and me being a magician couldn't even do anything to save myself. I owed him my life.

"Percy, if seeing a lot of deaths means you don't deserve to live a happy life, then the same goes for me. I haven't had a very easy life myself. I lost my mom when I was just a kid. And then...so many of my friends. There's so much about my life that you don't know. When you came into my life it seemed so much brighter. You don't realize what you are to me." I said.

"I'm sorry. I knew about your mom but about your friends I wasn't aware of." He said, looking down.

"They weren't that close. I'd met some of them just before they died." I said.

"Oh." Was all he said. We stood in silence for a while. Then I took in a deep breath.

"I'll ask you one more time. What do you feel for me? At least let's clear it between us. Something or nothing." I said.