::Jacob::
After finding my multiple medications, I closed the mirror cabinet. I then locked myself in my bathroom. Going back over to the sink, I looked at all of my medications. There was eight of them. (One). Anti-Bipolar Meds, (Two). Schizophrenic Antidotes, (Three). Anti-Depression Meds, (Four). Psychosis Decreasing Meds, (Five). Night Tactical Antidotes, (Six). Anger-Controlling Meds, (Seven). Pain Killers, and (Eight). Inner-Minute Explosive Disorder Depressants. They all have a different side effect, depending on the dose of each. Some have effects on others in which can cause me to act worse than I do when I don't take them. I looked at how many I needed to take. I wasn't even thinking if I would overdose or not. But if I did, who would care? After staring at them for a long while, I just took one of my anti-bipolar meds. It was the only one to not have that big of an effect on me. Which I loved, it just kept me calm.
Although I didn't care for my other medications, I knew I'd be bound to take them sooner or later. As I poured one of each Med into my hand, I looked up and looked at myself in the mirror. Something I hadn't done in a while. I looked as if I hadn't slept in days. The bags under my eyes caused me to look tiresome and sad. I set the pills aside for a moment, staring long and hard at my features. Who would I be if I lived my life based on medicine? A nobody. I would never be myself again and I don't want that. I am made the way I am supposed to be and no one can change that but myself. Unfortunately, for many, I'm not going to change anything. I will stay just the way I am as long as I know I can eventually be happy and free. I might be psychotic but I don't care. It's who I supposed to be. I live for it and killing myself, would just be a waste.
"Jacob?" I heard Serenity's voice ask innocently, seeming as if she'd been crying.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"I just wanted to apologize for my behavior. I never meant to hurt you." Serenity explained.
I sighed. "Apology accepted Serenity."
"Will you come out, please?" Serenity asked.
I took a few minutes to place everything back where it belonged, not even taking those meds after all. I unlocked the bathroom door and stepped out, to see Serenity standing there.
"Are you okay?" Serenity asked.
"Yeah, I'm cool. And don't even ask what happened. I didn't mean to go off like that." I explained.
"But I wanted to know -" I cut her off.
"Just save it. I don't feel like talking." I said calmly.
I slightly pushed passed her and made my way to the kitchen. I could feel her following behind me. But, I didn't understand why.
"Lance called." She said.
"Okay." I said as I looked in my refrigerator.
"He was wondering where I was." Serenity continued.
"And?" I asked.
"I told him I was with you." Serenity said.
I stopped fidgeting around for food and stood up. I turned to her. She looked at me as she played with her nails. She gave me an innocent look yet it read a sign of yearn all over it. I finally got her, but I needed more. I smirked to myself and walked towards her. She smiled warmly, looking up at me.
"So what did he say?" I asked.
"Of course, he was mad but I said he had nothing to worry about." She explained.
"Anything else?" I asked.
"No, he breathed deeply and hung up." She said simply.
I nodded my head and turned away from her. My manipulation qualities are working.
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Obsession [Jacob Latimore]
FanfictionThe story of a woman who is continuously getting brokenhearted by her now, going on two and half year boyfriend. Her name is, Serenity James. What Serenity doesn't know is that she has an admirer. Her admirer goes by the name of Jacob Latimore. He's...