I Missed You (O2L fanfiction)

Chapter 4

I woke up on the couch with Trevor at my feet, holding them, asleep, sitting up. I was able to get up without waking him. I went upstairs to the bathroom in my room and took a shower. I got into the warm water and washed my hair, body, face, and shaved my legs.

I got out and ran into room and got dressed. I put on some black leggings and a cute sweater from Bethany Mota's fashion line at Aeropostale. I then went back to the bathroom and kinda blow dried my hair. But just the roots. I french braided my hair to the side since I was too lazy to do anything else with it. Then I did my makeup and brushed my teeth.

I went downstairs to see everyone at the table whispering. They didn't see me so I was listening in on them.

"I think she likes you." I think it was Kian who said that.

"Maybe. And I like her. A lot actually." Trevor said.

"But I swear to God Trevor, if you hurt her, I will kill you. You all know what she has been through. She's really fragile and sensitive. Please don't hurt her." Sam said. I love him. So much. He is the best brother in the world.

"I won't. Trust me." Trevor said.

Before anyone could say anything else, I ran in coughing, acting like I didn't hear anything.

"So guys. What's the plan for today?" I asked, getting a bottle of water out of the fridge.

"Ummm well. We don't really have anything to do today. But maybe we can go to Taco Bell? Or froyo?"

"BOTH!" I yelled. They all just laughed.

"Both it is. Leggo!" Sam said.

We headed out the door and ended up taking Ricky and Kian's car since there was 7 of us. It was me, Sam, Kian, and Trevor in Kian's car. The Jc, Connor, and Ricky in Ricky's car.

When we got Taco Bell, we ordered and sat down. Then a whole bunch of girls came in and started fangirling. There was 5 of them. 3 were blondes and 2 were brunettes. They came over and 2 of them gave me a death glare.

"Who's this ugly fag?" One of the blondes said, looking at me. My eyes started watering so one of the brunettes said, "Awwww look Grace. The fag is gonna cry." She said, laughing.

Sam stood up and yelled, "GET OUT BEFORE I HURT ALL OF YOU!" After he said that, I slid out of the booth and ran into the bathroom. It was one of those single stalls things so I was by myself. Thank goodness. I looked in the mirror and tears burned in my eyes. I just let them fall, trying to cry silently.

"Cay, please open up." I heard Kian's voice.

"Go away." I said. It was obvious in my voice that I was crying. Then I heard banging on the door. I finaly gave in after sobbing for about 5 minutes. I turned around and slowly opened the door. All the boys were standing there with a worried look on their face. I ran up to Sam and started crying my eyes out.

"Don't listen to them Cay. They're just sluts. Please don't cry." Sam said into my hair while shushing me.

"Too late." I barely made audiable.

I gave up on hugging him. So then we decided to leave since we weren't up for froyo anymore.

When we got home, I ran up into my room, locked the door, and ran into my bathroom. I looked into my mirror, and voices in my head kept telling me, "Kill yourself already. Nobody likes you. DIE!" I couldn't take it anymore. I screamed and started throwing things in my room, sobbing. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs.

I went in my bathroom, shut the door, and locked it. I grabbed my razors and started cutting left wrist.

1 cut for being ugly.

2 cut for being weird.

3 cut for being stupid.

4 cut for being worthless.

5 cut

6 cut

7 cut

8 cut

9 cut

10 cu- FRICK I WENT TO DEEP!!

"AHHHHHHHH" I screamed in pain. I just noticed everyone screaming and banging on my bathroom door. I guess they unlocked my bedroom door. I fell to the ground.

Next thing I know I was being carried out of the room. Then I just blacked out.