What May Seem

12/5/22

I feel numb. I have every question answered now. There's no more mystery! But still I feel numb. I feel numb because I remember. 

Maybe I should tell you what exactly happened tonight. Nat is dead. We were running our routine tests and that's when it happened. Nat was looking at his eyes when, right in the middle of the examination he started screaming. Awful heart stopping screams that seemed to go on forever. He clutched at his skull grasping it as if it would blow apart and tearing at his hair, all the while, he was standing over him. He stared down at Nat with ferocious intensity. Then, as suddenly and abruptly as it began, it ended. I don't remember walking over to him. Nor do I remember pulling him close to my body. All I remember clearly, in that last moment was the way he stared up at me as I held him close to my chest. His eyes remained open even after his heart beat no more and his airways stopped emptuing the last breath. The same way my husbands had when he died the same way. 

The Company made me forget. They took away my real memories and altered them so that they could use me once again. He was found. Not by The Company but by me. Well, in sense. If you consider my discoveries that led to his creation as finding him. 

I worked for The Company. We all did. It was a lot easier then though because the team was working willingly. I got to live with my family in the same cabin my father owned when he worked for The Company. I met Levi, when he joined The Company to work on a special project. That special project was him. We were all told that creating him would help end war, would promote peace, and that families would never have to send their babies off to war ever again. It was all a lie. The truth was we were creating a weapon. A weapon capable of killing in the most excruciating way imaginable. Something that could feed on a persons very memories, usually the worst ones, and use them against them. 

Research actually had nothing to do with his creation initially. By a fluke our geologist discovered a dark substance in meterorites. The dark substance was known to infect the minds of animals making them turn on themselves and destroy themselves in any way possible. Using this substance and a suitable host the experiment was complete and so was he. By the time we realized how dark and destructive he was, this fatal mistake had already shown its consequences. 

I was the first to come in contact with him. For weeks I studied and took care of him. I alone took him into my charge. Eventually we knew we had to introduce him to others on the team. This lead to my husband being the second to be in contact with him. This resulted in his immediate death. Everyone wanted to destroy him after that. I couldn't though. He was all I had left. 

In short, The Company destroyed and altered our memories of the event. The tragic backstory that I had was only a slight shadow of what was reality. For this, I swear, I will destroy The Company. Locking me in my own mind and him in a cage is unforgivable. Using him I will END The Company.