falling for him

the nightmare

𝐏𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐚 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕

i genuinely cant believe what happened to katniss. i scares me. i'm glad i got her out of there when we did, or things could have gotten worse. I also can't believe that a boy who i've known since 4th grade, would do something so deranged. that's not the Gale i remember being one of my best friends for years. Who knows how long he's been planning to do something like this.

i walk up the stairs to check on Katniss, i knock on the door incase she's still changing but when i get no reply, my first instinct is to barge in. i can see that she's found the clothes, my clothes, and is asleep in them, she looks so peaceful when she's asleep, but i know her mind must be somewhere else. suddenly, her face scrunches up and she begins to scream, she's having a nightmare...

•~ 𝐊𝐚𝐭𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐬' 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕 / 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐞 ~•

i wake up in the unfamiliar room again, only this time fully conscious with my hands tied around a post, almost as thick as a tree. I hear footsteps like no ones but the cold, stomping of Gales boots. The door is vigorously opened by none other than Gale. He stomps towards me, and i try to get away but its no use. He gets closer and closer and i feel so helpless. i start to scream and try to wrangle my wrists out of the rope that ties me and its yet again no use. its like i can feel his hands on me again and the horrible feeling rushes through my veins. i begin thrashing around recklessly when all of a sudden, i hear an echoey voice shouting my name i can't quite figure out who it is. i wake up, still thrashing around in a cold sweat, shaking.

"Katniss you're ok, he's not gonna hurt you"
says Peeta, i think his natural instinct is to hug someone when they're upset but i feel so distant from him. he must have heard me screaming 'don't touch me' and 'get away from me' and run to my rescue yet again.

"do you need anything" he says

"no, im sorry for waking you" i say but he simply brushes it off saying "its ok, i was awake anyways, painting, goodnight i guess" he says smiling but i cut him off when i yell

"Peeta, will you stay with me?" to which he responds with "yeah, always".

he slips into the bed beside me and his strong arms fold one around my shoulders with his hand resting at the top meeting the other. I feel safe. secure. like all of my worries have gone away. i snuggle into Peeta, wrapping my arm around his torso laying the other on his chest and slowly i doze off without nightmares.

𝐏𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐚 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕

i wake up, with katniss in my arms in the same position she fell asleep in, the sun pouring through the window like honey shining on katniss' face. i glance over at the clock on my bedside table trying not to disturb her. 6:47 am. i guess we can sleep in for another hour or two. slowly, i drift back off to sleep

𝐊𝐚𝐭𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕

i wake up, mostly entangled in Peeta's sturdy grip, it's almost like he hasn't moved overnight. thats when i feel a warm sensation on my chest, i look down, his left hand rests solemnly on my shoulder, just as it was last night, his right however, lays spread out, on my chest, and i think he knows where it is. but just to be sure, i place it back on my shoulder and snuggle back up to him so there is almost no space between our bodies and soon enough, i find myself drifting back to sleep in Peeta's arms.

2 hours later, i wake up and stretch across the bed seeking Peeta's warmth, however i am unable to find it, thats when i hear a knock at the door and slowly, it opens and in comes Peeta, holding a plate with pancakes on and a cup of tea, as i sit up, Peeta takes a seat next to me telling me not to rush and everything is just right to taste. The pancakes are exquisite but there seems to be no sugar in the tea, i ask him and he says "sorry, i forgot, its an old habit of mine" and he leaves the room to get sugar, now i can get more comfortable and sit up properly.
"do you take one or two?" he asks with a smile

"two please" i say, returning the smile. he pops the intricate cubes into the cup.

"im going into the shower" he says "do you need anything else?"

"no, im ok for now, but i dont have any of my clothes, only my dress and i dont wanpt to wear that, just looking at it makes me feel sick to my stomach" i say. He looks concentrated and then he walks over to the draws and pulls out a hoodie, and some shorts.

"you can wear these, if thats ok?" he offers and without a pause i accept it. He leaves the room and i finish my breakfast and slip into the closet and change into the clothes, which feel far too big, but then i look up and see the tremendous bruise forming on my head. it must be from when Gale slammed my head into the bed-frame. Before i can get my head around it i'm sucked back into the room where i was assaulted, the memories come flooding back to me and i stare blankly at my reflection and all i can think of is how disgusting i am.

𝐏𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐚 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕

just as im getting out of the shower, and wrapping the towel around me, i hear Katniss scream. i run to the bedroom, not even knocking, only to find katniss on the floor with her knees tucked up to her chest crying and covering her ears.

"hey, hey. Katniss, its ok you're safe here". i day and she throws her arms around my neck and i hold her close. she sobs into my shoulder
"why didn't you tell me about the bruise" she says and at this point, im just as confused as she must have been,
"what bru- holy crap, its bleeding!" i say, im not very good with blood but it looks bad and i have to stay strong for katniss. I run downstairs and grab the first aid kit and trip on the way back up to the room. While fixing her up, she asks me with a smirk if i "knew what i was doing earlier" and frankly, no, i had no idea what i was doing earlier."what do you mean?" i ask trying not to blush. "oh, it's nothing" she says but i know i must have done something.
"do you wanna go to the beach?" she asks, "it calms me down"
"ok sure, let me just get you some ice for your head" i say. i walk back up the stairs and place the ice wrapped in cloth just above Katniss' eye. her beautiful grey eyes lock with mine for about 6 seconds then we break away. she takes hold of the ice and stands up and walks towards the back door...

𝐃𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚𝐰𝐞𝐞!
𝐓𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝.