The Hidden Alter

11/6 /Rachel

I woke up this morning not remembering anything from last night which is odd because I don't drink and if I switch alters I usually have a slight memory of what I did while they were in control.

I also think my date ditched me, or I ditched my date? Maybe I have new mysterious alter that I didn't know about?

When I walked out of my room this morning and into the kitchen I found Anya sitting at the counter with a bowl of cereal and phone in hand.

"Good morning, Anya," I sleepily greeted her.

"Good morning sleepy head, have a good night?" she grinned.

"I don't remember," I mumbled "did I actually go out on the date?".Anya nodded her head .

"Seemed like a creepy dude but you seemed to like him. You got home and you guys were already making out. I hand to pull you off of him and drag you into bed. You were very rude!" She chuckled and and lifted her eyebrows as she lifted a spoonful of lucky charms into her mouth.

The odd thing is I'm never rude, myself and all of my alters have always been very kind, or quiet.

"I think I might have a new alter," I mindlessly stated.

She turned around looking extremely surprised "Is that even possible?" she thought for a second, "Could it just be a alter that was there but never came out? Do you even know anything about them?"

I thought for a second "Well... you said it was rude right, maybe that's the kind of person they are, rude? If they are the one who went on the date I would have imagined they to have written in my diary like my other alters do when they've taken control. But maybe they don't like doing that kind of thing, or maybe they found another diary to write in I'll look for it later!".

Then oddly I felt as if another alter had taken over beside me, like I was there and someone else was at the same time.

"No don't do that!"

Then the feeling went away entirely. My mouth hung open as I stared at Anya dumbfounded, her expression mirrored my own.

"How is that even-" I began but was cut off by Anya.

"I'm taking you to the doctors today!"

I know I should have complied with her since its what would be better for my health and state of mind but instead I snapped at her.

"What? No! I'm going out with my friends today I don't have any time for the doctors!" whoa that was really weird I never snap, at anyone. I stepped forward to try and apologize but Anya jumped out of her chair and screamed.

"Fine go hang out with your friends and neglect yourself but I know that deep down you know you should go!"

When she said that I immediately shuddered and felt bad about what I said so I calmly reached my hand out and grabbed her arm "Wait Anya I didn't mean that, but you know Felicity cant' go to the doctors it has to be me, and she needs to come out and play so she needs to hang out with friends. You know what happens when I hold them in. We'll go tomorrow ok?"

Anya pulled her arm from my hand and closed her eyes as she sighed with a shudder. When she opened her eyes again they were calm but there was still some anger hidden in there. "Look," she held her hand out and walked me to the couch "I know that Felicity needs to come out and that she can't go to the doctors. But I'm worried about what will happen if we don't go. You know a new alter is bad news and I don't want you to get hurt,". Her face looked extremely pained like the thought of losing me physically hurt her.

Then I realized how much it would hurt her if something happened to me I was the only family that she had left that cared about her, but I knew I couldn't go today. "Ok Anya I understand... but I can't go today so we have to go tomorrow," Anya sighed and nodded her head. She understood.

"Alright, go get ready so you can go hang out with your friends,"

I shot up with a grateful smile spreading across my face, as I mouthed thank you and shot up the stairs where i went to right this quickly.

-Rachel