all about luv || monsta x

who do u love || changki

„who do you love?
is it him or me?"

c h a n g k y u n

i know that shownu likes you.
i know that i like you.
maybe like isnt the right word for our feelings.
we love you.
but i dont know who you love.
tell me, who do you love?
our leader or me, the maknae?
i really want to know it, i feel like dying from not knowing it.
i just want you by my side, knowing that you love me too and that you would look at me with your beautiful smile, that melts my heart everytime i see it.
can you tell me how you feel?
when i see how close you two are at concerts or fansigns i get jealous, no matter how hard im trying to ignore those feelings inside me.
i asked you, if we could cuddle, you agreed.
now were lying here, my head on your chest, your arms around me, your fingers playing with my hair.
its completely silent.
„kihyun, who do you love?" i ask.
your fingers stop playing with my hair for a few seconds, them they continue. „what do you mean?" you say, not getting what i mean.
„do you love shownu or me?" you say that you love us both, were your bandmates, of course you love us.
but thats not what i want to hear.
„i love you kihyun. like, i really do, not just as a bandmate or a hyung. i dont like the idea of you loving shownu. i want you to be my kihyun."
for a few moments theres this silence again, i was scared of what would happen next. looking up to you, i see your smile.
why are you smiling? do you think im joking?
ready to say something again but i stop, because you look at me.
you lay your hands on my cheeks and look at me with this soft look you always give me, and i need a few moments to realize whats happening, when i feel your lips on mine and close my eyes.
„do you want to know who i love?" i nod.
„its you." i kiss you happily.
„so, that means youre mine now!" is the first thing that comes out of my mouth after our kiss. you laugh. „now im only yours, not shownus nor anyone else in this band."
even tho we cant publish our relationship or kiss on the stage or something like this but youre mine now.
my kihyun.
i will still be jealous when you and shownu will be too close, but i know you dont love him.
we continue to cuddle, you still play with my hair but now you also sing with your beautiful voice.
im getting sleepy more and more.
„good night, my kihyun."
„good night, my changkyun."

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five out of ten finished i guess.
idk if im also going for a one shot for the who do u love remix or not. depends on the fact if i have an idea or not.
its actually funny that i wrote five chapters in just a day and a few hours without this book getting attention until now but who knows?
anyways, if you liked one of the oneshots so far, you can check out my yoonmin oneshot "beside u" on my profile if you want to-
yeah, self promotion my friends.
thanks for reading, i hope you liked it