I push down the gas pedal and start driving out of the gas station. My mom is sound asleep on the passenger side of the car. The radio is turned up playing some pop music and I'm humming along.
I try to smile but I cant. This is gonna be very hard. Like really really hard. I need to keep on a smile for moms sake, I can't let her cry. She already has enough on her plate. But what is school gonna be like.
Am I gonna get bullied. Are people gonna hurt or attack me. Or people gonna use me to there advantage. I'm scared, but deep down I I dont know. It's just scary, last year when dad left it felt like it was goin to shit. Now its somehow gotten even worse.
My life is goin on a downward spiral. And the place I'm gonna end up is six feet underground. Damn, it's just. I'm gonna miss them peeps. Argo, Wander. They were great peeps and even better friends. It's just that it makes me so sad even thinkimg.
I continue to drive. A song comes on. And I think I needed to hear this song. Tears filled my eyes. Yea, definitely. I dont know how it felt like it was me writing and singing.
"I've been on the low I been taking my time I feel like I'm out of my mind
It feel like my life ain't mine. I dont want to be alive" I sing along with the music. Tears filling up. No, I do want to be alive. Right. I dont eant to die. I'm worth something. Or am I not. It always feels like I aint.
((If yall going through some rough times and are suicidal. Please tell someone. Warning these next chapters will get dark))
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Facing the Darkness ~ Zelink Modern AU
RomanceHighschool is a rough time for everyone. but for this kid, it's even worse hes faced it all. Death, Greed, Suicide. It feels as though no one is there to help him. But to add more insult to his life he found out he had to move. His mom got offered a...
