freakshow

hurts like hell.

About 10 minutes after our fight. I decide to go look for Jimmy. I need to talk to him about what happened. I walk out of the trailer, and start looking for him. I walk around the campsite for a little bit, but I can't find him. I see Desiree smoking a cigarette in front of her tent. "You lookin' for Jimmy?" She asks. "Yeah. Do you know where he is?" "You might wanna check to see if Madison knows. I saw him walking over to her trailer earlier." "Okay thank you." I say to her. I walk to Madison's trailer, and I hear noises from inside. I start to panic, because it sounds like she needs help. I slowly and quietly open her trailer door. I hear banging coming from her bedroom, and I open the door.

What the hell.

Madison sits up and looks at me with a panicked expression. "Baby why'd you stop?" Madison pokes him and points to me. I just stand there. I can't move or think or do anything. I'm in shock. "Wait wait please Y/n don't leave let me explain." Jimmy says as he rushes to put on his clothes. I slowly start to stumble out of her trailer, with hot tears running down my face. I struggle to not fall as I step out of her trailer. Everything is blurry and I feel really dizzy. Was what I just saw real? I can't believe it. I try to walk away, but someone grabs my wrist. Jimmy. "Look Y/n please hear me out." "D-don't touch me." I say, not looking him in the eye. I try to walk away, but he grips my wrist tighter. "Y/n please-" "I SAID DONT TOUCH ME." I yell while yanking my hand away. He looks at me with tears in his eyes, yet not daring to say a word. I start to run away. I can't go back to our trailer, so I just run. I run as far as I can, and I find myself at a large tree by the pond. I sink down onto the tree. I scream into my hands, replaying the moment in my head. I scream and I cry until I run out of air. That's the only thing I'm able to do right now. Scream and cry until I can't breathe. But for some reason I keep crying. I've never felt this kind of pain before. I know he's been depressed and angry recently, but I didn't think he would take it this far. He could of talked to me. He's my best friend. My soulmate. But now, he's like a stranger. I don't even know him anymore. My voice runs out and starts to croak. I feel so tired. I can't move a muscle in my body. I lay down on the hard dirt ground and sleep.