Highschool Sweethearts Yandere Tord x Innocent Reader ( Lemon )

Chapter 19

Y/N's POV

He left me alone again... My heart feels like it's been hurt again... Without anything really happening... I haven't seen Rosy since they took her for training. Knowing Tord he probably told them to keep her until further notice. I wonder where she is if I really want to escape. I can but I run the risk of getting lost in the maze.  

I'm not over it... there's a huge pit in my stomach... it's been three months and I need to move on someday but right now I still can't stomach the fact. I've been ignoring and trying to hide my emotions at the back of my mind... I have to try and face it.  It's afternoon now... I can only think and hurt... I still go and hide in the bathroom. Why? I ask myself the only reason I can justify it is that I don't like the camera watching me. 

I move and look around they watch me... it's creepy enough they watch me when I sleep... it's dwelling my sanity and patience.  I feel it... I wanna escape now... I really do but I know I may change my mind.  If I do escape I need to take Rosy with me and convince Tord to take the camera down. 

I don't like the feeling people are watching all-time except when Tord's in the room with me... because he's watching me.  The only good thing so far about this is that they know when I'm having a fucking panic attack which started because of all this shit.  I feel dead inside sometimes... I'm waiting for when Tord comes back or when I feel tired enough to sleep in the bed and just let them watch me. 

Now it feels like evening, either Tord is gonna stay with me...or he's going to stay in the other room.  I wait and wait... then the door swings open... " sweetheart? " he yells out for me.  I get up and go and see him,  "hi... " I say as I lean against the door, " come here " he looks at me with an expecting look... I walk towards him and he's sitting down.  He gestures for me to sit on his lap...  so I do as he says.

" Now what's wrong? sweetheart, why are you so sad? " he asks me looking at me.  " Where is Rosy," I ask, " she won't be coming back to the room at least not today but she's being kept care of " he acknowledges.  " Let's see your collar " he suggests I show him my neck and he takes off the collar.  He put on a chainlink collar with wires and the same ruby heart, " So you can't cut through it sweetheart "... he always knew that I could cut through it. 

It's tighter on my neck and colder I can already tell it's made to be more painful than the last one... " What's the point of me wearing this in the room "  I squeak. " So you don't try and escape even if you manage to get through the chains " he answers as he inspects the collar on me.  He kisses my cheek, I think how I should bring the topic of the cameras up... " what's the point of hiding from the cameras? " he asks me. 

" I don't like it when people watch me, just to see what I do even if it supposes to help me ", " I installed the camera in case you have- ", " Bull " I call out quietly. " You had implemented here before I was brought here "  I point out.  He clears his throat, " the answer to your question is no, besides if you know there are cameras than you know that they're off when I'm here " he reminds. 

I give him a pout, " Please...it's creepy and I don't like it ", he shakes his head.  " End of discussion " he orders...  " ok...  " I sigh, the door is knocked upon, "I'll get it" I get off and sit on the bed, " thanks," he said as he gives me the plate of food and I eat it... " Sweetheart, what shall we do~ " he smiles. 

" I'll decide after I eat " I reframe..." Alright, " he says as he goes into the bath.  I finish the food and leave the plate on the vanity. I don't know how to get through him, he isn't listening...now... I'm waiting for something good to happened and he's in control and he won't listen to anything I say.

When he gets out he sees me leaning back on the bed frame " you don't listen to me..do you even care about my feelings " I look at him with glassy eyes, " Shhh~ we can compromise, I'll take the cameras out a two ok? " he compromises.  I have to escape... I feel like an embarrassment when I hear his tone...it's condescending  

I need to leave and escape...not to mention...he's right I don't know what he'll do in the future. I want out now. I want away from him...