Bad Boy's Girl

Chapter 24

Nate had brought me back to the gangs house, leaving behind the rest of the guys to clean up Lucas's body. I was in Nate's bathroom taking a nice shower, trying to wash away my sins from the past few hours. My mind kept racing from 'what if he had a family who loved him' to 'if I hadn't gotten the gun, it would be me in the body bag'. I didn't know how to feel — just like Tyler had warned about earlier.

I heard the bathroom door open, but couldn't see who it was because the shower was behind a wall. "I got you a fresh towel," Nate said as he walked into view. He was holding a towel and a glass of wine. "And something to ease your mind."

"Nate?" I questioned quietly. "Am I a bad person for killing him? I had no other choice... right?"

"You had to Natalie, it was the only choice." He said as I nodded slightly. I pushed open the glass door of the shower and grabbed onto his shirt, pulling him in and pushing him under the water.

"Sorry, I was just a little lonely." I said while smiling at him. "Nate I'm sorry that I hooked up with Ryan. I shouldn't have and I know that. I was just in a bad headspace and did something stupid. I love you and I only love you. It just really hurt me what you did when it came to those girls and how you acted after I saved myself from Lucas the first time."

"Cupcake it's fine," he said softly while pulling his soaking wet shirt off. "I'm sorry too. I should've figured out another way to get investments instead of the way I did. It wasn't fair to you and I had to hurt you in the process, so it isn't okay." He leaned down and gently kissed my chest, "you're the only thing that is important to me and I messed that up. I love you so much and I was just so stupid."

"Are you still stressed?" I asked while playing with the waistband of his joggers. "I guess I could help you relax." He smiled before gently grabbing my chin and placing his lips against mine.

"That would be wonderful," he said quietly.

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We all ordered Italian take-out for dinner and were sitting in the kitchen eating. I didn't have much of an appetite — me shooting Lucas and seeing his body lifeless on the ground kept running through my brain. Even him being dead, he kept me stressed and on edge. "Natalie?" I looked up at Emma and saw her looking at me with a questioning look. "You have barely touched your food."

I stood up and grabbed her hand, pulling her out of the kitchen and down a hallway. "I can't stop replaying what happened in my head. How do I make it stop?" I asked as tears started to stream down my cheeks. "I-I killed someone. They're dead because of m-me."

She pulled me into a tight hug and just let me sob on her shoulder. "It was you or him." She said quietly. "You had to kill him, it was the only way for you live. I know it's hard to think about, but you had too. There's no question about it."

Tyler walked down the hall and stopped when he saw us. "What's wrong?" He asked while joining the hug.

"How do you do it?" I asked, "how are you okay after you've killed someone."

"You just have to realize that it was for your life," I nodded slightly. "It's hard no matter what to think about it, but it was either my life or theirs and I'm not letting them take mine. So that's why they're six feet under and not me." He pulled me away from Emma and wiped the tears away on my cheeks. "Natalie, he would be dead either way right now. If he had killed you, Nate would've killed him within days. His fate would've been the same. You don't fuck with a gang leaders girl and not expect to die."

"Okay," I said. "Thank you. It's just weird to think I ended someone's life." I shut my eyes and laid my head against my brothers chest. "I'm grateful to be alive right now, because I know it could've been me in that body bag. But it's just hard."

"It'll be weird for a few days, but it's gonna get better." He said as he kissed the top of my head, "and that's a twin promise." I smiled and stepped back. "I love you sis."

"I love you too," I said. "Um, can you guys give me self-defense lessons? I just wanna be ready in case anything happens again. And maybe shooting lessons so I don't have to shoot him more then once?"

"Yeah of course we can." Tyler said, "tomorrow morning we will." I smiled a thank you and walked away towards the stairs. I saw a few guys talking and just having fun together. I sighed and walked upstairs and then down the hallway to Nate's room. I opened the door and immediately got a weird vibe.

My eyes scanned the room and stopped on the bed. There was a piece of paper and a knife with blood on it. I went to Nate's nightstand and grabbed the gun he had stashed in there and then walked over to the paper. I grabbed it and my eyes scanned over the words.

You think Lucas is the only one who wants your head? I'm coming for you Nathan. You can't get rid of me as easily as you thought. I'll pick off every guy you have first, including Natalie and Emma. I'll strike when you least expect it, as I did tonight. You think you're safe here? I know this place like the back of my hand. Go check your closet for a surprise and an explanation for the knife.

I placed the letter back down and cautiously walked over to the closet, grabbed the door and opening it. "Nate!" I screamed as I looked at Robbie's bloody body on the floor. He was still alive but was very evidently struggling for air. "I'm going to get you help, you're going to be okay." I ran out of Nate's room and downstairs. "Guys help. Robbie was attacked and is in Nate's closet."

The guys ran upstairs and I went to the kitchen and told the rest of the guys in there. Within minutes, Robbie was brought to the ICU of the house — there was a mini 'hospital' ward in the house. He was in surgery to get his wounds fixed and blood back in him.

I was now just in the kitchen, still holding the gun and staring off into space. "Who would do this?" Tyler said from the hall. "Who knows this house 'like the back of their hand'?"

"I don't know, but whoever it is sounds like they have a death wish." Nate said, "once I find out who hurt Robbie and threatened our girls, he'll lose his life within seconds." I walked away and went to the wine cellar. I grabbed a bottle of vodka and saw down in a corner and drowning a sip of the burning liquid.

I just needed to forget about the things that had happened the past couple hours and the only thing I could think of was getting drunk. This gang world is so fucked.