Santana Lopez and the new girl

Part 2-scars

It was the weekend and Tina was over, talking to me about her stupid glee club assignment. But i had zoned out and now i was the one with my head in the clouds with the unicorns and fairies. To be honest i really liked music, i played the guitar and piano and didn't mind having a bit of a sing now and again. But i didn't want to join glee club because i knew that they made you wear revealing outfits and i didn't want everyone to see my scars. They were old scars, from two years a go and were gradually fading, but they were still visible and i couldn't deal with everyone seeing them, especially not Tina.
I went through a rough patch about two years a go and turned to a blade. My dad was a heavy drinker and left us when i was 12. My mom started staying out late and coming home with a different guy almost every night for about a year until her and my grandma had a huge fight which ended up in tears. Anyway that was around the time when my depression got really bad. I fought it for a whole year until i started to self harm. I cut myself for a long time in secret until my mom found out and took me to counselling. I stopped self-harming pretty quickly after that but a whole year later the scars are still here.
"Annie? Helooo!? Earth to Annie can you here me??" Tina's voice rang through my ears, bringing me back to reality.
"What? Oh Umh...Katy perry!"
"What?" She looked confused.
"Katy perry, you should sing one of her songs. The one that got away, thats a classic summer anthem right? Do the acoustic version though."
"Genius! Sheer genius thanks kid. You know you really should join glee club its really good. And it's not only about the singing they're really accepting and understanding about everything. They will help you through your problems and wont tell any of your secrets. Sure we have our fights but in the end we are always still a family. You should join, I've heard you sing Annie, you're good."
"Well in that case i HAVE to join." I said sarcastically but i really was considering joining, i guess it could be something to get away from everything. All the memories and the scars, everything.

Monday came and everything was normal, Tina picked me up in the morning as usual and lessons were the same, boring. It had almost been two weeks since I first started at mckinley, and nothing had really happened.

Sign up sheets were still up, but they wouldn't be for long, i had a couple of days before they were taken down and tryouts took place. I sent Tina a text that said "hey T, ik I've been an idiot about it but I'm seriously considering joining glee. Help me pick out a song?" I was actually doing this. Why was it such a big deal for me? The image of Santana flashed in my mind again as i thought to myself. What the hell was it about that girl? What had she got to do with any of this? Was i even into her? I haven't even thought properly about the fact that I'm a lesbian. Sure i knew, but i hadn't thought about it for a long time, since everything went down because i knew my mom probably wouldn't accept me as a lesbian. I had never even spoken about it to anyone. And i wouldn't speak about it. Hell i shouldn't even be thinking about this!
My phone buzzed and once again i was brought back to reality by Tina "YAY! I knew u had it in u! Ok meet me @ lunch today and we'll figure something out, wanna come to mine 2nite?"
"Sure sounds good." I texted back, and everything was erased from mind.