Give it all for Love

Chapter 19

Next day
Y/N's POV
I was packing my suitcase frantically. I had all the essential I needed when we leave. I have sent a text message to Jimin earlier that were leaving tonight. He said that he would wait for me outside of the palace gates. He had a stash of cash from birthdays, and Christmas he had saved up. He said that tomorrow, we will fly to the US and start our new lives there.

As I was packing my things, I was calling Erin, I needed her help so much. My phone rings to connect to her line.

Erin: Hello.

Y/N: Erin, it's me.

Erin: Hey, Y/N. How's it going. I haven't heard your voice, in like forever. Thank god, we message each other like every day.

Y/N: Listen, Erin. I need your help.

Erin: Shoot, go on what is it.

Y/N: I and Jimin are running away from home.

Erin: Why?

Y/N: My dad found out about us and forbid us from seeing each other, so we decided to run away and get married.

Erin: Holy Shit.

Y/N: My dad moved the wedding date from 3 weeks to 4 days. We have to leave tonight before this wedding happens.

I can hear Erin's breathing. She must be shocked.

Erin: What do you need my help with?

Y/N: Can Jimin and I stay at your place for the night? We'll leave as soon as we can in the morning we promise. We're leaving the country tomorrow. 

Erin: What time are you planning on getting here?

Y/N: Probably at 9 pm maybe sooner.

Erin: Ok, I will let my parents know. They will understand. 

I breathe in a sigh of relief. 

Y/N: Thank you so much, Erin. You are a real true friend.

I hear her giggle.

Erin: Hey, what are friends for right.

I smile as I ask her for her address. I smile and thank her again as I hang up. 

I go to my desk and sit there. I take out pieces of paper and being writing my goodbye letters to my family. I write to my brothers, Mr. and Mrs. Park and to my father. 

It's hard for me to say goodbye to the people that I love and love me back. But I had no other choice. I am an adult and its time for me to make my own decisions on life.

I take what seems like hours as I write and pour my heart out into my letters. I put the letters in envelopes and label them. I put them on my bed each apart from the other. I sigh as I begin to cry a little. 

I feel another lump in my throat as if I'm about to throw up again. I have been throwing up more the past day. I have a feeling and know why?

Ever since our first time having sex, Jimin and I haven't used protection. And I wasn't able to get birth control or the morning after. There a chance that I can be pregnant.

I don't know how but deep in my heart, I am conflicted whether I want to or not. Part of me does want us to have a child. I've always wanted a child and now with the man I love. But another part of me isn't ready to have a child. I want to see the world with him and do so many things before we have a child.

What am I going to do?