When I couldn't reach Phoenix that previous night, I just slept and woke up early to look for her wherever I could. I searched our honeymoon places and everywhere and I could not for the life of me find her! Now what the fuck was I going to do if she didn't answer calls? I knew I probably should've talked to Tara as well about the baby but I just couldn't have kids right now espcially with another woman. I decided to avoid her until I cleared my head. I knew she wasn't stupid enough to keep something no one wanted.
