Clemency. ✓

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Beyoncé Knowles,

Shawn and I met at the same Italian place we never got to eat at a month ago. He, again, held the door open for me as I checked us in with the waiter. I booked us a private room this time.

"You like this place, I'm guessing." He said.

"I never got it even after we left that night. I do love this place though. Yes." I told him.

"What do you get?"

"Depends on what I'm in the mood for. Sometime I like the Spaghetti. Sometimes I like the Alfredo. Other days I do the Chicken Parmesan." I shrugged.

"So whatchu getting today?"

"I think I'm in a spaghetti mood." I nodded.

"Aight bet, I want the same thing cause this menu ain't got no pictures and I can't read Italian." He said closing the menu.

I laughed, "It's not in Italian. It's just a fancy Italian place that doesn't have pictures in the menu."

He chuckled. "So you wanna talk now or wait til after we eat something?"

"We can wait until after I guess ." I shrugged.

He nodded, "So how you been lately?"

"Not good." I admitted.

"I'm sorry. Anything interesting happen over the last month?"

"I moved into my own apartment again. That's pretty much it." I shrugged.

"That's good."

"Yeah, I saw where Lori moved into her new home." I said. "How is that going for you and her?"

"Good." He nodded.

"How is she?" I asked.

"Who Lori?"

I nodded.

"She's good." He nodded. "She's excited."

"Good, she should be." I told him. "Babies are a blessing."

"Why you being so nice?" He asked.

I laughed, then shrugged. "What do you mean? I have no bad blood between me and Lori. I don't wish bad on her or anyone else. I hope she has a safe and healthy pregnancy and delivery. It's just when she's with you, she's not outing me on social media. So this feels good."

He began to shake his head.

"I don't wanna be with her, Bey." He blurted out.

"I'm sorry." I simply said, he groaned lightly while shaking his head in defeat. "What do you want me to do?"

"I don't want you to do nothing." He mumbled. "I just want you to understand that I'm not living with her because I wanna be with her again. I'm with her cause she's given me a room in her home to be there for her, Shai and the baby. I wanna be there for them, but I don't wanna be there for her as a relationship."

"I understand that. Handle your responsibilities." I said.

"Baby, is you taking this serious?" He asked.

I busted out laughing, "Stop 'babying' me. We're not together."

"Yes we is." He mumbled.

"Why are you harassing me?" I smirked.

"I'm not. I just missed you." He pouted.

I shook my head, rolling my eyes playfully.

"You know what? Let me just get to what I wanna ask. Tell me what you wanna be from here on out. Can you just tell me what you feel right now? Like what do you want us to be at this point?"