Finding You ❀ h.s.

Chapter 7

Happy late thanksgiving to the americans!!

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Liam and Emilee chatted together. I knew they were talking about me by the way they would say something and both glance in my direction with love in their eyes, like they were proud parents talking about their child.

I was bored. I ate enough to make me full for days and Liam made sure I didn't even think about the bar. I just wanted to go home.

I looked across the room, i knew he was looking at me. Even since I've met him, I've seemed to have this sense of just him and everything he does. It drives me crazy.

He was about 3 tables over. Two of my fellow models were talking to him, Louis probably introduced them.

He looked past the blonde's head at me, licking his lips and nodding at whatever the models were saying.

"I'm going to the bathroom." I told Liam and Emilee, taking the deep red cloth from my lap and putting it over my empty plate.

I stood up and walked to the exit. I just needed some fresh air.

I sat on the stone bench, letting out a long breath. I could finally let my food baby be free in this dress - no one could see me.

I spoke too soon as the doors opened, and out he walked.

My food baby will have to wait.

He didn't say a word as he sat down next to me. I was facing in the other direction, looking at the moon above London.

"Full moon?" Harry asked.

I nodded. "Yea."

We stayed quiet and I was enjoying the silence. I came out here for some peace and Harry was respectful and didn't disturb it.

"I'm sorry." He said after the longest time.

I frowned, still looking at the moon. My mouth couldn't make out any words for him.

Was I angry?

Was I sad?

I was confusing myself with my own emotions.

"I...I didn't mean to hurt you Monica. I thought you knew from the start that everything I do is for my job."

I smirked, holding back the tears. I really didn't want to talk about it.

"Harry, can we please no discuss this-"

"No!" He stood and raised his voice.

I raised an eye brow at his sudden outburst, turning away from the moon.

"Excuse me?" I said.

He sighed. "No, Monica. We need to discuss this now."

I rubbed my temples. "Why not later, Harry?!"

"Because there will be no later." He started. "You'll say that we can talk this over later - but you're not only lying to me, you're lying to yourself. You'll pick up your things and leave everyone who loves you again all because you couldn't solve your own damn problems."

I breathed heavily, while I sat her stunned. "I'm tired of your excuses. I can't let you run away again without you knowing that I am terribly sorry. I didn't know you would be that upset, Mon. You knew the consequences-"

"I loved you, you idiot!" I stood, yelling in his face. "You made me fall into your fucking arms like I was the only one in your life - you let me fall into your damn trap. You can't blame me for falling in love with you-"

"Monica, you're the idiot here." He smirked in an angry way. "My relationship is fake. When i saw you on the first day I started teaching, I thought I would never have you. You were my fucking ticket to have the closest thing to a relationship.

"I did fall in love with you, Monica. I loved you with all my damn heart, and it hurt me more than it hurt you to have the best thing that ever happened to me walk out of my life."

He breathed heavily. I was left speechless.

I wanted to slap him.

I left because He rejected my love, when in reality he felt the same?

I shook my head lightly, looking at the ground.

"And here I am now. Confessing the love I held 2 years ago to you. I loved you, Monica, and I regret not telling you everyday." He swallowed hardly, his voice cracking every so slightly.

I nearly ran to him, pressing my lips to his. I felt like love was electrocuting me, it was the best feeling ever.

Harry kissed me back like my lips were the only things holding onto his life. His hands cupped my blushed cheek.

He pulled away. "This is wrong Monica." He breathed.

"B-But...you love me." I peered up at him through my eye lashes.

His thumb brushed a tear away on my cheek.

"I loved you, Monica." He breathed out. "I barely even know you anymore."

His words only made more tears come to my eyes, i had to look at the ground.

"You have a man through those doors who loves you with all his heart - probably more than I loved you. He won't give you up, and he won't make the mistakes I made."

I looked up, my make up was surely running.

He leaned down, his lips touching mine one last time.

"Goodbye, Monica."

He turned on his heel, slowly letting my hand go and walked towards the parking lot.

"Harry." I yelled. "Harry!!"

He didn't turn back around, he kept going forward.

Away from me.

"You're making a big mistake Harry!"

He was out of sight.

I fell to my knees, breathing heavily.

"I still love you."

The words were only heard by me, and I knew letting him walk away was the biggest mistake I've ever made.

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Sorry for the short chap
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-poppy
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(No, this is not the ending chapter. This isn't even close to the ending.)