Lyrical Lady

Blink

Hands on the steering wheel,
car going downhill.
Empty roads, empty car, empty thoughts.
Blink.
You're in the drivers seat.
The car is going downhill.
You can't control it.
Brakes jammed. Door locked. Windows locked.
Nothing is in your hands anymore.
You scream. You're helpless.
You have no control of what is going on.
You're screaming and you're alone.
Blink.

You're in the middle of an ocean.
Sun shining bright in the sky.
The light reflects on the water like a million shimmering stars.
A million shimmering stars hiding the choked screams of a million drowning souls
You one amongst them
But you're struggling to stay afloat.
You can't breathe.
Nothing to be seen. Nowhere to go.
You can't feel the ground below your feet.
You're struggling to breathe.
You scream. No one to hear.
You're all alone in a vast expanse.
Youre all alone and you're losing control and you're helpless.
Blink.

It's dark.
You can't see a thing.
You close your eyes.
You can't hear a thing.
You feel for a wall.
You feel for a ground.
You feel nothing.
The void inside you is on the outside and you're inside it.
You scream. You shout.
All you hear are the echoes of your own terror.
You're helpless and alone and have no control of anything.
Blink.
Open eyes. Close eyes. No difference.
You scream and no one to hear. All alone.
Blink.

You're in a crowd now.
You're not alone anymore.
You spot your friend.
You tap their shoulder from the back to say hi.
They don't turn.
Tap again.
They don't turn.
You forcefully turn them towards you.
They turn.
They're looking right through you. Not at you.
You scream. You make noise.
They don't reply.
You spot your parents.
Wave at them. No reply.
Go to them and try to get their attention.
No response.
You get hysterical.
You scream you shout you create a scene.
But no one cares.
You're not alone.
But you're lonely and helpless and can't control a thing.
And finally you feel hopeless.
You're lonely you're helpless you have no control of anything, you're hopeless.
Blink

You're back to real life.
Tears fill your eyes.
You try to hide them, don't want any unnecessary attention.
Blink.
Blink.
Blink the tears away.
Blink. Fake a smile.
Show your dimples, it'll always look like you're smiling if you show your dimples.
Blink.
Take a deep beath in.
You're still lonely, still helpless still have no control over anything.
Breathe out.
It's ok.
It's your life now.
Blink.