The Collision of Two worlds

Eliza

⚠️WARNING: This may contain self harm if you are uncomfortable I will tell you when it starts and ends⚠️
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Jacob has been avoiding us. None of us have seen him and we don't know what or where he is. A few weeks ago I let my depression get the best of me, a few days after he started avoiding us. I ran to my room to cry. After crying I let my insanity get the best of me.
⚠️self harm begins now⚠️
I summoned a small dagger and looked at it. I was thinking about it . "Do it," Ash said. He had become quiet these few days. I slowly pointed the dagger to my wrist. My hands were shaking and I was scared. I made tiny cuts at first ,but I then started smiling like a maniac. My insanity got the best of me. I cut deeper. I couldn't stop. I was to the point of passing out ,but Ash helped me stay conscious. I put on a long sleeved hoodie and washed of the blood. That became a habit for me and my arms became filled with cuts.
⚠️End if self harming⚠️
I went up to the roof almost every night in hopes of finding Jacob here. At last I made it a habit to not sleep and cry on the roof. I had bags under my eyes and the only time I wore short sleeves was when I went to the roof. I sat thinking that Jacob never liked me and that he wanted to avoid me as much as possible. I curled up and cried. As I cried I heard footsteps and didn't dare look up. I hid my wrists and tried to stop crying. "Hey," Jacob said, "how you been?" I didn't answer, I didn't even look up. He stayed silent. At last he put his hand on my shoulder. I shook his hand off my shoulder. "What's wrong," he asked. "Nothing," I replied. "Then why won't you look at me," he said. I stayed silent. "Look at me," he said. I shook my head no. "LOOK AT ME," he said louder. I slowly lifted my head and avoided eye contact. He put his hand on my cheek and caressed it. "What's wrong," he asked. "Nothing," I said , hiding my wrists. "What are you hiding," he asked. I didn't answer. He quickly grabbed my wrist and I winced in pain. He looked angry and sad at the same time. "Why," he asked, "why did you do it?" "I-I," I couldn't tell him. He looked at me straight in the eyes while I avoided eye contact. "Why did you do it," he said louder. "I......"