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I wake up drenched in sweat from a bad dream. I touch my stomach and then my head. I dreamt that Erwin punched me and killed our baby and I miscarried in front of Levi. How wild is that? That would've been soooooo awkward. Almost like showing up to training with no pants.
Well since i'm already awake, I might as well get my day started.
I'm going through the motions but the only thing I can think about is my dream? Why would my brain want to torture me like that? Normally I subconsciously protect myself from things that will stress me out. And the thought of that stresses me the hell out.
I decide to go on a little run before breakfast. Nothing clears your head like the pain of running.
I start and immediately regret it. I run a lot for someone who hates it so much.
Normally the way my body is feeling right now would block out all other thoughts but I just cannot stop thinking about that dream.
It was so vivid. I must've been getting some really good sleep because I never dream that hard.
Maybe I should talk to Erwin.
But I can't right now. I'm mad at him for some reason. I can't remember why but I remember being extremely angry. So I will stay angry until I remember what he did to piss me off.
I've kinda been hiding out. Avoiding everyone because I feel like I am feeling things but I don't know what I am feeling things for.
I need a break. I'm hurting my brain. And my body.
●●●●●Hanji's point of view ●●●●●
"So, should one of us, you know, talk to Erwin?" I ask Levi finally breaking the uncomfortable silence. He thinks for a bit before answering my question with another question
"Well. Is it our place?" Damnit, he has a point
"How about this, we wait to see if she tells him and if she is just going to hide it we will have to say something." I offer a horrible but great idea, waiting on her face her problems.
"But this is (Y/N) we are talking about. Do you think she would actually confront Erwin. " he asked knowing gotdamn well that she wasn't.
"Okay. We wait. And then regroup later." I turn to face the window
"Whatever" he leave says as he leaves me .
****** Time skip brought to you by a national pandemic *******
2 hours later
●●●●●●●● Levi's POV ●●●●●●●●●●
"Erwin are you even listening" I knew he wasn't. Why did I even bother asking.
He nods but he still isn't actively listening. I get is full attention by physical forcing him to look at me and then lean back in my chair.
"Talk."
"(Y/N) hasn't spoken to me in days. I feel horrible about what happened. " He starts while putting is head in his hands covering his eyes.
Oh, so she told him.
"Its not your fault. We couldn't have known what was going to happen" I try my best to be comforting
"I shouldn't have let my rage blind me. I shouldn't have gotten so jealous. I never meant to hurt her it was accident" He states, staring off into the distance
"She is handling it very well almost as if she didn't suffer a loss." Blinded by rage? Hurt her how? What is he talking about?
"A loss? What are you talking about?" he asked finally looking up at me
"What are you talking about?" I quickly reply.
"Well I may have accidentally hit (Y/N) in the abdomen and sent her flying into a wall. But I didn't mean to" finally the pieces come together. Realization hit.
"Thaaat's why she miscarried because you-"
"She what!" Erwin is now standing looking for me to elaborate. Shit
Quickly he makes his way over to the door and heads out to most likely find (Y/N) but I gotta find her first.
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Nothing is better than fresh air, and sunlight. I never really think about this that much but man I love breathing. Oxygen feels absolutely amazing.
I see Levi in the distance, when he looks at me he starts sprinting.
What do I do? Run away? Sprint to him? Wait and let him do all the work? Maybe a should walk? Or run??
"(Y/N)". Oh he's already here
"I need to-"
"We don't appreciate this crispy oxygen enough." He needs to look less mean in the face and more full of air
"Huh? No I need to talk-" not until you unforrow them eyebrows boy.
"You were in my dream. Wanna hear about it, it's is hilarious traumatic but hilar-".
"(Y/N)!" Erwin!
I turn to face Erwin who walked up behind me and he immediately pulls me into a hug.
"Um. Erwin?" Don't talk to me for days and now we want to be all huggy and mushy??
"I know about the miscarriage and I just want you to know..." his voice fades away but his lips keep moving. But all I can here is miscarriage. I pull away from the hug and look at the ground. I can't handle those intense eyes right now.
Miscarriage.
"You don't have to go through this alone".
Miscarriage.
"You know where you can-" I cut him off because this is some type of joke.
"Did I tell you about my dream"? I whispered to him.
"No, but I'm sure it was a lovely dream." He says taking my hand
Miscarriage
"No." I state, pulling my hand back "I dreamt the you hit me and I lost the fetus in front of Levi" I take a few steps back from him, bumping into Levi, who I had forgot about.
"That wasn't a dream was it?" He says nothing. "WAS IT"? I know I don't really want the answer. But I always like to know every component.
He places a hand on my back and shakes his head and mouths an "I'm sorry"
Miscarriage
I'm not sad
I'm not angry
I'm slightly appalled
But mostly I feel..
Empty.
Now I remeber why I was mad at Erwin.
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