Reverberating Lines

A Wall

Young and Curious, although maybe a bit too much.
Why are there so much songs about the victim?
Aren't there any songs admiting they're defeat?
Aren't there any songs admiting they're wrong?
Is it because their too prideful? Too perfect?

It was young love they said.
But was it really love? Would what happened in the past really fall into the generalization of Love?
Part of me thinks it was just pain,
For both sides of the story

It started with you and ended with me. I think you were in pain. And I think I was just Curious, but later on be in pain.

Used distractions as a reliever. Sometimes not doing anything to relieve the pain at all.

This doesn't tell much of a story. Because I'm still to afraid of telling it.

Let's just say, I broke myself trying to fix someone who barely knew me. He knew me from the outside.
He never tried to fix me or tame my demons. Probably because I tore my own walls for him.

In the end, I became too broken to fix him. He never asked if i was ok. I had to be the one to tell him. But he didn't really try to get me through it.

I guess during that time, I made my own invisible wall subconsously. Displaying only illusions of what I wanted them to see. I think it's still up until now. How could I know for sure? Its invisible after all.

A wall only known when sought for.
A wall only felt by those who tried.
A wall only seen by the eyes of the heart.
A wall only I could break if someone tried to help.

A wall that doesn't make sense.
A wall that triggers pain and suffering to those who tried to break it.
A wall that hides dark secrets, ugly truths and unsettling stories that would make you rethink your view of this person behind it.
A wall that causes confusion when left alone.

A wall that hides a way the ugly truth by satisfying lies.
A wall that is invisible yet acts like a weed.
A wall thats warm to the eyes but cold to the touch.

A wall that takes more than a sledgehammer to break.
A wall that takes more than a wrecking ball to tear down.

This wall exists in front of someone in pain. Hoping the people outside it won't worry about them. They shouldn't waste their time on the well-being of someone as worthless as the person behind this wall. Atleast thats what the person told me.

But please. Help them break it. Encourage them to break it.

Because for all you know, they might not be the same person you thought they were.
You see, this wall like said before, is a weed. Its a weed that sucks the remaining sanity that the person behind it has. It uses their sanity to fuel the illusions that you see.

So please, help them break it before they go insane.
Guide them and reassure them so their inner demon doesn't pull them back into the dark. I did my best but I'm still not enough. Their demon is going to get the rest of me soon.

This all started before. When she was young and curious. Although maybe a bit too much.