luke:
hey
hi
max
maxxxxxxx
i feel like we're even
you upset me and i upset you
i know you're probably thinking you were right and had a reason to be sus about me and cal right now
but you should know i don't have feelings for him
and he doesn't have any for me
we literally just had sex once
it was purely out of boredom and curiosity
and it's not awkward between us and there's no awkward tension or lingering feelings
because he knows i'm with you and he respects that
and i never purposely hid it from you
i just didn't tell you
i didn't think it mattered
because we were broken up
we were both sleeping with other people and i didn't think it was big deal
because it really wasn't, yk?
it was just a thing that happened
like,, cal and i fucked
that's it
there was no talk about what to do next
we got breakfast and played laser tag the next day
we're just friends
i promise
i know that promise is so often void because we all know it's a lie
but cal and i have never been anything more than friends who literally just hooked up once
and we're not gonna do it again
that was never even a thought
please talk to me
at least let me know you're okay???
you obviously didn't come home last night so i'm worried about you
because i do love you
you probably think i don't, but i do
i love you a lot
and i hate not talking to you
please text me
max🖤:
do you regret it
luke:
what?
max🖤:
hooking up with him
do you regret it
luke:
oh
no
i don't usually regret having sex
max🖤:
wow
luke:
what am i supposed to say
that it was bad
that i wish it didn't happen
because it wasn't, and i don't
i'm not going to lie just to make you feel better about it
max🖤:
you had no problem lying to me about it, so
luke:
oh my god
max🖤:
just give me some time
luke:
what?
max
don't
please don't do this again
please don't shut me out
i'm sorry
max🖤:
i can't, i'm sorry
luke:
can't what
max
max🖤:
i can't do this anymore
luke:
no no no no
talk to me
please
i'm sorry
i'll do whatever i have to to fix this just please don't leave me again
max🖤:
i'll get my stuff when i get back on monday
luke:
please don't do this
you can't do this to me
not again
fuck
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luke:
lmfao i'm gonna kill myself
calum my bf <3:
what?
did you talk to max?
what's wrong
luke:
unfortunately, yes
told me to give him some time
i was dumb and begged him to talk to me
he broke up with me
and now i'm contemplating ending my existence
calum my bf <3:
fuck
luke:
THIS IS A BAD IDEA but what are you doing tonight
i need a friend
i'm fucking losing my goddamn mind
calum my bf <3:
i get off in like an hour
i'll swing by my place to get a couple of things + duke then i'll be on my way
please don't do anything
luke:
i'm not
just contemplating
calum my bf <3:
well, don't
don't even think about that shit
because you are absolutely not killing yourself ever
luke:
we all die, you either kill yourself or get killed
calum my bf <3:
using vines as a coping mechanism is not healthy
luke:
i know
but idk what to do so
i'm gonna make brownies
calum my bf <3:
are you avoiding it
luke:
yep
and i mean
i'm kinda numb
just a little
i think it's my meds
and i'd like to feel /something/, you know
like... anything to keep me from feeling like a piece of shit for not being upset
maybe i should stop taking them
calum my bf <3:
and send yourself into a spiral of hypomania and stupid decisions and even more regrets than you already have
luke:
i guess, yeah
calum my bf <3:
no
i'm leaving early
so i'll be there in a couple hours
luke:
you don't have to leave early for me
calum my bf <3:
well, i am
you're my best friend
luke:
tell that to max he thinks we're in love so
calum my bf <3:
you'd think he'd trust you a little more than that
luke:
nope :)
and it's fucking hilarious because i trusted him
with kai
he told me not to worry
and that it was fine
and then it was so not fine
so i guess i'm not really surprised that he left again
i guess he was probably just waiting for an out
calum my bf <3:
god you deserve so much better
luke:
ugh
i wanna die
calum my bf <3:
too bad, no dying
there's still too much good shit you have to see and do and experience
luke:
like what
calum my bf <3:
the new atl album, for starters
they made it specifically for you
alex told me himself
you're the sunshine in wake up, sunshine
luke:
jsdhfhwgjfkl
ur a good friend
calum my bf <3:
i try
luke:
pls hurry
calum my bf <3:
i am
i'm about to leave work
i'll see you in a couple hours, okay?
sit tight
luke:
okay :)
