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I always strive
to be the best,
to excel, and
to be enough.

I always hope
that I will be loved,
treasured, and
understand.

But instead,
I always received
hatred,
disgust, and
judgements.

It always makes
me feel
like I'm a trash,
a disappointment,
and an unloved person
begging to be accepted.

I always wonder,
when will be the
time where I
strive,
hope,
give, and
love
ALSO TO
MYSELF?!