AND THEN YOU CAME

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This morning, i woke up with anxious feeling. However, i keep on reassuring myself that i shouldn't be too scared of him. No matter what, he's just my dad. I have to stop seeing him as a murderer who could kill me at anytime. He's not.

I go down, detecting my dad and mom in the dining room just like every morning.

Clearing my throat, i greet them. "Good morning dad, good morning mom."

I approach my mom and give her a soft peck on the cheek. I never, ever give my dad a good morning kiss. Maybe i did when i was little but i stopped doing that since primary.

"Why do you bother to go home? Just sleep in Taehyung's house."

I freeze, getting goosebumps at my dad's low voice.

"Nam Jieun." he calls out when i wasn't responding. He takes off his glasses, massaging his forehead then looks at me.

"Do you think i'm joking around?"

I gulp. Be brave, Jieun. Be brave.

"Dad, please stop this." I speak, voice almost sounded like a whisper. "I have my own things to do. I'm an adult. Please stop telling me what to do as if i'm still a kid."

At my defense, my dad glares at me, trying to resist his anger.

Maybe i made a wrong move early in the morning, but i'm tired of this.

"Oh, you can talk back now?" he turns to look at my mom. "Darling, is our only daughter rebelling now?"

My mom sighs, keeping me by her side. "She's an adult, honey."

With mom's defense, i feel less tense. I feel stronger now. At least i know that mom is on my side.

There's nothing funny, but dad suddenly laughs. The deafening laughs scares me.

When he stops, he points at me. "If you're an adult.." his eyes burns into mine. "You should stop playing around!"

Mom screams in fear when dad punches the table, making the glass breaks in pieces.

I only stare at his bleeding fist in horror.

"If you can't be serious to continue what i've built this whole years, just leave the house!" he shouts at me, pointing out with his bleeding hand.

"You should've given birth to another child! Not this useless daughter-"

"Stop shouting at mom!" I scream, eyes pricking with tears. "I'll do whatever you want, just don't blame my mom for what she can't give you!"

I drag my mom away, but my mom resists.

"Go, Jieun. Let me take care of this." Her eyes are full with tears, and i can't help but to cry in silence.

Letting go of my mom's hand, i take my bag and run out of the house as fast as i could.

I should've been braver.

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I'm pretty sure everyone thinks i've lost my mind today. Crazy look, swollen eyes. That's what i look like when i arrived.

I don't care. Nobody cares about me anyway. I only care about finding Taehyung now. I need consolation. I need him.

We still have half an hour before the first class start. I quickly put my bag on the chair, leaving the hall immediately to find him. I know he has come, i saw his bag.

I really want to cry now. But i have to wait until i find him. No one has ever seen me cry but him.

I look for him everywhere. Library, park, cafeteria, court, you tell me. I climb to the second and third floor and i still couldn't find him.