AND THEN YOU CAME

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Three years later

Hi there. It's been three years without we even realize, right? So many things have happened for these past three years. I've gone for my internship, even though i was six months late than my other smart friends.

Those six months of being alone without anyone's company, was hard. I don't even want to think about it anymore. The way i studied alone, and my dumbass brain wasn't helping at all. I cried almost everyday, because i was struggling to understand the materials for quizzes and exams. Taehyung was busy with his internship, and Eun was busy with her own life too, so they couldn't help me much.

Luckily, six months later, i finally managed to go for the intern on time. And graduated on time too. All those hard work, wow. I am so so proud of myself.

The graduation day was memorable though. But also hurtful, kind of. Everyone's celebrating with their friends, sending bouquets to each other. I didn't get any. Because my smart friends graduated first, so i ended up graduating by myself. I cried, because even mom said that she's going to be late. I was really, really alone that time.

I was so ready to cry when suddenly, all of them came. Taehyung, Hyunae, Jungkook, Namjoon, Yoongi, even Hoseok and my mom. They brought one bouquet each, and all of those were for me. Turned out, they planned to prank me by coming late, including mom. I really cried like a baby after that, and Taehyung even took a video of it. I wonder if he still keeps that embarrassing video. But anyway, it was a happy day. After they came, of course.

My life was totally normal after that. Hold on. Have i mentioned about dad? No? Okay.

So basically, after they left me for intern, dad was being different. I guessed he finally realized that everything he has done hurt me deeply. We stopped talking for half a year, i swear. Even when i went to the airport for my internship, he wasn't there.

However, after a year, when i went back home from my intern, he was there to pick me up. He apologized, even. I knew he was still a very awkward and stiff person, just like me, but i acknowledged his effort. I didn't know what mom said to him when i was gone, but he stopped forcing me to continue the business after that. It was so so shocking. I couldn't even believe it myself.

So now, we're living peacefully, even though the relationship between dad and me could be better than this. It's okay. I'll try harder. At least he stopped pressuring me. That's all i ever wanted.

If only he changed a little sooner, probably everything would be alright. Him and i wouldn't have to end up like this.

Ugh, can we not talk about him please? I'm trying my best to heal from the past. Just, talk about something else, okay? He's not coming back to Seoul anyway.

Hmm.. talk about something else- Oh.

Taehyung and i are going to the university today. We need to collect some certificates and documents there.

Now let's stop talking about the past and just move on to the present, shall we?

"Taehyung, your turn."

I beckon to the office with my head, asking him to enter.

He still looks around as he stands. "It's good to be back after a while, right?"

I nod. "I'll stroll around the building, so call me when you're done okay?"

He nods and then entering the office.

I turn around, and the tall, Victorian styled building is in front of me. It's been a year. And the university sure holds a lot of precious memories.

As i walk around, i notice that there's not many changes are made since i graduated. The court is still there. I peek inside and see unfamiliar members there, practicing hard. I heard from people that the basketball team is still legend though, even until now. What about the cheerleader team? I didn't hear anything, but i hope that club is doing excellent too.

I don't stop strolling until i reached the top floor of the building. I can't see any differences here. The art room, the classes, the taekwondo room, every one of them stays the same.

As i walk through the familiar corridor, the memories slowly comes in.

I remember pulling Hyunae's hair, and then being rejected by Taehyung here. Everyone was staring at us that time. In the end, it becomes a bittersweet memory to me.

Without i even realize, my feet brings me to the rooftop. I actually refuse to go there. But the little voice inside of me tells me to go, have some nostalgia.

When i open the door, as expected, nobody is there. Nothing changes here too. Even the lights are still hanging. The lights that he put on during our little celebration after the exams. I clearly remember that day, because that was the night where i got drunk for the first time. How funny. I was trying to find out my alcohol tolerance and turned out, i'm really suck at it.

I guess nobody has ever come here except me and him?

I close the door behind me, walking closer to the parapet wall. I inhale the fresh air, enjoying the beautiful view in front of me.

I let the memories come into my mind. One by one.

I spent my time here often. Mostly with him. Studying, crying, getting drunk, or just simply enjoying the afternoon breeze. It were so memorable.

I look around some more, and something catches my eyes. The broken table by the corner. I approach it, and i notice that the table has become so dusty.

I remember what i drew there.

I blow off the dust on the table. I cough and sneeze as the dust flies into my mouth and nose.

There it is. My ugly, ugly drawing.

It's actually just a drawing of a boy and a girl, studying together. I remember, i drew this when Jimin was explaining something in a textbook, but i was too bored to even listen.

Under the drawing, there was a familiar handwritting written there.

Nam Jieun draws really well, but she should study more :) -Park Jimin

Wait, i didn't know he wrote this. But.. when?

Reading his name makes me miss him more. I can just stop denying now. I miss that idiot. After three years, i still can't get rid of him out of my head. Not at all. This whole time, i'm literally just running away from this feeling because i know he's not coming back anymore.

Without i even realize, my vision has become blurry. I take a deep breath, wiping my eyes to keep them dry.

Stupid guy.

But then the next thing i know is, i break down.

I can almost forget him every time. But whenever i get to that 'almost', he appears back. I don't even know why this thing hurts so much.

Just then, somebody opens the door. I quickly wipe away the tears and turn around.

Turns out, it's just Taehyung.

"You shocked me," I say, turning away from him to hide my red face. "I thought it was the students."

Taehyung approaches me, grabbing my shoulders and turns me around to face him. And now he knows that i cried.

"It's hard, isn't it?"

I nod, and he quickly pulls me in for a hug. I continue to cry on his shoulders, hoping that after all these tears, i will really really forget about that idiot.

He won't even come back anymore.