AND THEN YOU CAME

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-Jimin's POV-

Today is another bad day. I shouldn't say it's a bad luck to be finally getting this letter, because some other students might want this honor too. But i just don't feel happy. I mean, please. Not at this time. I'm so not ready.

The days have been so miserable, so fucked up. And getting this letter of honor doesn't help at all. Getting informed that we have to submit the letter no later than this Friday, is even worse.

I mean, today is already Thursday! And i can't reach Jieun at all! Not even once after the breakup. And i only have few days before i have to go!

Wait, she didn't tell you about this? So she literally went missing just like that? Oh God.

I think i should be the one to tell you then, no choice. To be honest, i don't even want to talk about it anymore.

Alright, i'll just explain briefly.

Remember the day when we went to the park? Everything was normal after that day. For days, for weeks, it were normal. We even have won the competition i talked about. And starting from that day, everything changed.

It was at night, i remember, when she suddenly called me. I wasn't surprised though, we always call late at night. However, when i heard soft sobs from across the line, i realized, that night would be longer.

I was wrong though. It was a very short phone call. Probably the shortest we've ever had since we dated. She was trying her best to talk despite the hiccups, and i was trying my best to accept whatever she said. It was too fast, everything was too fast.

She asked for a breakup.

-Flashback-

"What happened Jieun? Why are you crying?" I ask, feeling worried.

Something must've happened between her and her dad.

"Jimin.." she calls out, sobbing. "Let's break up, both of us."

I stand up immediately as she mentioned that. "No," I muttered unknowingly, but after some time, i shake my head.

"What do you mean, Jieun? Did something happen to you and your dad again? Tell me. We don't have to do it this way." I speak, trying to be as gentle as i can. I know she's having a hard time too.

"No." She denies. "I just think we can't keep this going on."

"Why? I thought we've talked about this?" Tone of disappointment came out from my voice. I can't help it.

She sobs, saying, "I'm sorry."

I breath out heavily, my head feels dizzy all of a sudden. I decided to sit by the edge of my bed, trying to hear more from her.

It was such a tiring day for me, and now this? At least make me understand why.

"I don't want dad to hurt you." She admits after some time of silence. "He's going to hurt you if we keep our relationship going on."

I don't care, Jieun. I don't care if he hurts me.

Deep inside, i know she's trying to protect me too. But i couldn't accept that. It's better that she protects our relationship instead.

"Please understand.." her sobs gets louder, and my heart breaks into pieces as i listen to it.

"But i don't want us to end," my voice starts to shake, but i cover my mouth for the wish that i can hide them.

This world is too cruel.

"No, we can't be together." She affirms. "Both of us are going to get hurt in the end. This is not what i want."

I don't know what to say. Too sad to talk.

"Please forgive me," she continues. "I know you deserve someone better."

I don't.

"Jimin?" She calls out my name, and it sounds hurt now.

A tear escapes, and i quickly wipe it away. But others start to come down too, and i don't bother to do anything to them anymore.

"Please do know that i'll miss you."

-Flashback end-

Hurtful. Our call ended just like that. I was very angry for the first few days, but when i finally came back to my sense, i realized that i still want her. I know she does too. I know none of us are going to give it up so easily.

So i try to find her. However, she stopped attending classes few days ago. Exactly the day after our breakup. It's been three days since then, and i can't even contact her until now. Nobody can.

Taehyung, who's her best friend, has no idea about her condition too. He went to her house to check, but no one was answering the bell. I went there several times, and i even shouted her names, but no result. The distance between the gate to her house is too far, probably i was shouting at nothing this whole time.

Tomorrow is the last day of the letter's submission. If i can't reach her at all, at least please just let me tell her that i'm leaving soon. I just want to see her for the last time before i really go. The intern lasts for a year, not months. It's going to be a very long time for me if i don't get to say at least a word to her.

I don't even know whether we can meet again.

I can just wait for another six months for internship, so i can go together with Jieun. But it's useless. No matter now or then, our relationship won't get approval from her dad.

Actually, i have a strategy to make this works. However, it's a very hard decision for me. I don't want to leave her now. I have to say goodbye, at least.

So, thinking about that, here i am now. Standing in front of the gate of her house. Again.

I know she probably won't hear me, i know she probably won't even know that i'm here but, i just want to try.

Even though it rains.

Maybe this dramatic situation will help me. Maybe she'll come out, knowing that i stand here like an idiot for hours, with just a small umbrella just to see her.

Deeply inside, i know this won't work. I know she won't come out, especially when it rains, and when all the maids are inside, ready to hold her back. Probably her dad even paid some bodyguards to stay in front of her door already.

I just want her to know that i'm still waiting. She has to know that i'm still waiting. And she will know.