ODETTE (peter parker)

Let's Maybe NOT Murder the Author?

Um... Hi

YES I KNOW, IVE BEEN BAD.

So um, to anyone that actually cares about this story that only has a single real chapter published at the moment, I really am sorry for not updating. Honestly, what I wrote felt like a huge fever dream and was all written by my sleep deprived self at 5 in the morning on a Sunday after having not slept for three-ish days. Which is surprising because looking back on it not MONTHS later, that was probably the second best/most descriptive writing I've ever done. 

Is it bad to say I'm a fan of my own story? Probably. But for once I am. 

Also fun fact, chapter two has been half-written for as long as this book has been published

I think I just gave you another reason to kill me. 

I digress. I suppose you may want a reason for my... absence? I'll try to make it brief for whom it may concern

HOLY FUCK IT'S BEEN OVER HALF A YEAR (I genuinely didn't know this before I started writing this apology. This isn't being edited you are seeing all of the thoughts going through young Dani's mind in the process of writing this)

Writing was always a way for me to cope with life's issues. I have a lot of problems, which I won't bore you with at the moment. With saying this, I project a lot of my problems into my writing. As stated in the overview, this book contains a lot of triggering topics. All of which I have gone through except for domestic abuse. I vent about these things through my writing. I will address about three of my personal issues that I struggled with the most during this "hiatus" that kept me from writing ANYTHING. 

1. I'm didn't have access to a laptop. The already published parts of this book were published on July 30th, however, this way a few months after they were actually written. I wrote them at school, on my school laptop (which we don't have during the summer). Saying that, my dumb ass chose to publish them in the middle of summer. Also known as the time where I don't have access to a computer and can't write. Now before you say "you have a phone, write on there" let me tell you how difficult that is, especially when you are basically blind. This reason isn't as potent as the others, as i have had my laptop back since school started. 

2. Toxic people in my life. I have had a lot of abusive friendships in my teenage years. I'm still not healed, so I'm not going to go into them in great detail. Basically, my "best friend" would constantly tell me in multiple ways how my writing sucked and by venting my issues in my books i was being an attention whore. This really got to me and I couldn't bring myself to write, even after the relationship ultimately ended. 

3. A constant struggle with my identity. I've been struggling with identity as long as I could remember. For this reason I constantly put LGBTQ+ characters in my books, many characters don't fit in with gender norms, and I tend not to reference religion. While this adds diversity, it was also really hard considering i didn't know who I was until now. Let's make a timeline (you know that sound on TikTok that goes "So you write down a word, but it's not the right word..." yeah we're basically doing that.

Ages 0-11: I'm a straight cis female! 

I was an odd kid. for the first five years of my life I wanted to be like my older brother. I would steal his boxers and place wadded up socks in them and wear them over my pajamas. Thankfully, that ended. While this may seem like a "tell" it really wasn't. Caleb and other boys were basically the only other kids I was exposed to ( I did have female friends at this time, but I admired Caleb and his friends and wanted to seem cool around them by being like them). With saying this, I was still an EXTREMELY girly child... insert picture