The Glow of the Rainbow

Dearest Reader

Hello,

I don't normally do introductions to my stories, so if you please bear with me.

* August 2020 update *

I originally wrote this story in a few days and posted the first draft. I then updated it with edits.

It's the end of August 2020 as I'm writing this updated bit. I decided to revisit this story, edit a few scenes and redo the cover. I was going to let this story sit and not come back to it, as I say, later on, this was an emotional story to write. 

But I decided to come back to it so I can share it again. With everything going on in the media about trans people, I think it's important to hear stories from trans people.  I'm 2 years on hormones this month and I've never been happier with how I look and sound. There is an outro where I discuss how important it is that the LGBTQ+ community stands together to support each other, and I still firmly believe this. 

So here I am, asking for your support.

if you see a trans person getting attacked online or in real life, speak up. Help us, because so many people stand by and do nothing. There are trans people that are so scared because of everything. We can't do this alone. We need your help in our fight to just live.

I hope you enjoy this story of William. Although it is fictional, some of the things that William speaks about are very real. The emotion is this story in taken from my real life, the emotion is raw and this is probably the story that took the most out of me emotionally, even though it's very short compared to what I normally write. 

Here's the rest of my original intro below. Thank you for reading this, if you like it, leave me some comments :)

So why am I writing an intro??

First of all, this is a story idea I've been throwing around for a while. It has sat in my idea notebook for so long. The reason I only aim to write a short story is because this is going to be a topic very close to my heart.

I always put a little bit of myself in all of my characters, Alexander Fawn from the Blood and Thunder trilogy has anxiety which is pretty much exact to mine. There are some scenes in book 2 which were actually a personal experience that I decided to write. 

Brooke Reid from Game of Patience has some mannerisms which are very me. 

Roman from The Soft Glow in the Dead of the Night, again, has anxiety like mine.

But I promised I wouldn't write a story with a trans male character because I'd be pouring everything I had into him and to write a full length novel, would honestly take it out of me. So I'm going to attempt a short story. Which I seem to struggle with so I'm aiming for around 7,500 words with a max of 10,000. Or an absolute max of 25,000. (I started a short story that turned into 25k, and now is ending up at full novel length.)

I have a habit of writing, not very happy things or about people having to fight for certain things and yeah, things may work out in the end, but the character is never the same.

But my own coming out story has battles I don't wish to revisit and mine is relatively nice to other's stories. But the battles you face with yourself are ones that never leave you. 

But I feel it is time to maybe write this story, and there are going to be more pieces of myself in this story than ever before.

I even published a poetry book about my transition and mental health etc and I wasn't this nervous about writing it. Which is strange. I just hope I can do it justice.

I didn't start my medical transition until I was around 19, so I never got to go to college as me. But I often wonder what would have happened if I did.

This story is a mixture of fiction from my idea of 'what if?' while also mixing in some very real situations. The college situation will be based on my own, because let's face it, it's always easier when you write about what you know.

So here's to William, the first name I would have chosen if it had suited me, and his fresh, fresh start.

Kyle William Urban :)