She's Got The Devil's Eyes - Deckerstar (Completed)

Chapter XII

The rest of that day had been, well... intense. That was the word that described it most accurately.

Lucifer had understood Chloe's point of view, that it was unnecessary and uncalled for if they made a scene over what his brother had done, it would be a talk with too much Luciferness for them to have at work. Besides, only five people at the precinct knew about Chloe's pregnancy and two of them were Lucifer and Chloe herself, without saying, of course, that no one else knew about the divine side of things. It really wasn't the place to discuss rays of heavenly white light coming off of her stomach and wrapping around an angel's heart and it fading away and probably appearing in Hell.

With all of that in mind, the remaining two and a half hours they stayed at the precinct had been filled with a whole lot of uncomfortable silence and a fidgety Lucifer sitting by her side. Now that he knew she was fully okay, all it remained was the wanting, the need to know what his brother had done. He couldn't help it but still feel the desperation to fly down to Hell and take matters into his own hands. The only reason he was still on Earth was because Chloe had asked him to, but if it were up to him he would be wiping Ansel's soul from existence. No one could even wonder about harming Chloe and getting away with it, that was how much he cared about her.

The thought of the baby and the fact that Ansel had been after it and not Chloe made it inside his mind a lot more times than he would like to admit. Apart from the fact that the child was inside Chloe and while trying to hurt it he might have also hurt her as well, he also started to feel worried towards it. It frightened him at first, the fact that he was scared for his child's life and safety, but after doing a bit of thinking and actually going over everything Linda had said, he stopped freaking out.

Linda had been right on so many occasions, she had shined a light on all the issues Lucifer had had over those last two years, she had helped him understand himself, his actions, his feelings, even. He had learned to not take for granted everything she said and to actually listen, and even if doing what she advised would always have some sort of unlikable implication, he now could understand that it was for the better good in the long run. He couldn't help it but let all the words that had been spoken during their session slip right back into his mind on those two and a half hours of just sitting by Chloe's side.

He loved Chloe, there was no possible way on either Heaven, Hell or Earth anyone would even dare to refute that. She was the purpose for his heartbeat, she was the one to give his life meaning, she was the only human since the beginning of time to ever make the devil vulnerable, to ever make him bleed. There was no doubt on that side of things. His issue -and he was actually able to identify it- was, of course, with all that his impending fatherhood entailed.

He could tell Chloe was happy about it. She had so many doubts and questions and fears about it all but ultimately, he had never seen her look happier. She was looking forward to becoming a mother once again, and she was actually glad it was with Lucifer because she loved him just as much as he loved her. He had vowed to himself that he'd do everything in his power and even go beyond that to make Chloe happy, which meant he was aware that if he ditched her with the baby he would be failing her and therefore, hurting her.

Truth to be told, it went further than just sparing Chloe the heartbreak of realizing he was a disaster. He just... talking about it with Linda he realized that if he stayed and did everything in his power to be a good father, even if he failed horribly at it, it would still be better than what he had to go through during what would be considered his childhood. His father had always been there, but as much as he was the head of the table, he was always unavailable, it made him feel like no one could ever reach him. Growing up with the knowledge he was there but knowing he would never have his attention had contributed heavily to who he was now and the fears he had towards his own fatherhood as well. Anything he managed to do regarding his child would be a thousand times better than what his father had done to him and his siblings.