She's Got The Devil's Eyes - Deckerstar (Completed)

Chapter XVI

Lucifer was unable to fall asleep that night.

When he came out of Trixie's bedroom he had been immediately met by Chloe's glossy eyes and one of the biggest smiles he had ever seen on her face. She had been just so happy to hear that Trixie loved him, it made her feel surer in her stance towards their relationship and what she was doing with her life, it had been a huge relief. He could only be glad of how happy Chloe seemed to be as of late.

Going to Chloe's bedroom and getting ready to sleep after that had been filled with a lot of teasing on Chloe's side and lots of eye-rolling on Lucifer's, but when the time to fall asleep came around, he just couldn't.

He couldn't stop thinking about what the spawn had said, about how much it hurt her that the kids in her school were being mean to her. How could somebody be mean to her? She was one of the sweetest humans he had ever met, and he found himself not wanting words to ever hurt her again, wanting to protect her, to let her have a normal and happy childhood. Trixie didn't deserve that, she deserved everything good the world had to give her, and ever since that moment Lucifer decided he'd do his best for her to have it. He didn't care about his stance towards children, that had been long forgotten, now he just wanted the people he cared about to have a happy life. They only had so much time on Earth, alive, whereas he... he had all of eternity.

Realizing that the ones bothering the spawn were children themselves, well... that made him feel sick. More than that, it made him grow scared once again. What if his own children ended up being like those assholes that were making the sweetest child on the universe cry? What if he wasn't enough and therefore, he was the reason someone as innocent as Trixie got hurt? He didn't want to fail, he wanted to do things right. Why hadn't anyone written a manual on how to be a good parent?

All he had to lull him into slumber was the steady breathing of the love of his life by his right side and the whiteness of the ceiling surrounded by the shadows above. He had so many questions, so many insecurities, and of course, they all had awful timing when deciding to torment him.

He sighed, growing uncomfortable and feeling the need to just stand up and walk around, the plain old need to soothe himself with something. Just when he was about to lose control over the fidgety-ness of his hands, though, the sight of Chloe's swollen stomach made it into his visual field.

He clearly didn't think about what he did next, otherwise, he wouldn't have done it.

With all the care in the world, moving slowly so he wouldn't disturb his beautiful partner, he lowered himself so his head would be right by the swell of Chloe's stomach, where right underneath the layers of skin and muscle were his children, all snuggled up and warm. He carefully, as if he were trying to feel the softness of a rose petal, placed his hand on that bump that made him feel so many things, immediately letting the sound of one of the babies' heartbeat be heard at the back of his head. They were moving but very softly, at least strongly enough that he would feel them. Having his hand there always implied he would feel the connection he had with them, one he wasn't always so sure he wanted to acknowledge.

"Spawns," he sighed, talking with a soft and low voice so he wouldn't wake Chloe up. "I read on the internet that by now you can hear, so... pay attention," he felt the lightest kick underneath his palm, letting him know that at least one of them was up and listening. "I don't know how to do this, I don't know how to be a dad," he starts; his lips almost brushing against the fabric of Chloe's tee shirt. "But I do know that I want those I love to be happy, and you make your mother so happy... Which in return makes me happy as well. I... I don't know how to live this life, I don't know about domesticity, about children, much less those of your kind but strangely enough, I find myself liking this so far. Your sister's been teaching me that small humans aren't so bad, and I'm starting to believe that now,"