it will always be you. ( c.e. )

ii. messages.

messages.
" i do miss him, i guess. "

imessage chat between adella & lizzie.

adella
have you seen that article?

lizzie
the one about you and chris?
yeah baby, i'm sorry.

adella
don't apologise, it's not your fault liz.
i'm just kind of furious, i don't understand why they can't leave anything private.
and digging up that old tweet? holy shit

lizzie
i know love
it's okay to hurt still

adella
it's been four months
i should be over it by now, don't you think?
i'm an fucking mess lizzie

lizzie
no you're not del, don't fuckin say that.
you are still allowed to be hurting - four months isn't long enough for you to just be okay with everything.

adella
but he's gone and he's "okay" with everything.

lizzie
i'm sorry to be blunt but
how do you know that?

adella
i don't but
i do miss him, i guess
despite all the shit that happened

lizzie
and baby let me tell you,
that man misses you so much too.

adella
i don't know how i'd ever be able to look him in the eyes though, after all the pain
i don't know how to forgive something like that.

lizzie
forgiveness takes time, remember?
baby steps della.

adella
okay
baby steps.