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ch 14

IM SORRYYYY don't be mad at me🥺 I'm back and here the update y'all wanted (ps. they are older in this story and of legal age to drink blah blah)

charli pov
I don't know what to do. I ended things with chase because I found out he cheated on me. i mean sort of. we weren't together when it happened so I probably shouldn't be mad but he still kept it from me and I don't know how I feel. he texts me everyday and knocks on my bedroom door every morning. I hear him crying in Nick's room all the time. I know how bad this hurts him and I know how sorry he is but I just don't know how to forgive him. I really want to but it feels impossible.

chase pov
I hate myself. everyday I hate myself for what I did to her. it feels like I can't breathe. I'm laying in bed staring at the wall when Nick comes in.

"chase dude get up. I'm done with all this sad shit."
I look over at him barely moving.

"I don't know how to get up Nick."

"cmon just come downstairs and get a drink with me it's the middle of the night and no one will see you."
at this point alcohol seems like a good idea so I get up slowly and follow him. we walk into the kitchen not saying anything as he pours me a drink. I take it without a pause. it seems easier to just numb it for a while.

Nick and I continue to drink in silence for a while until Im visibly drunk. I can't think but I still remember charli. I thought I'd forget but I can't think about anything else. FUCK. this isn't fair. I just needed to forget. I stumble across the kitchen and open the cupboard searching for the ceramic plates. my fingers find the stack and I pull them down stumbling. I raise one plate above my head and hear Nick yell at me to stop but I don't care. I smash the plate into wall and no doubt wake everyone up. over and over I throw the plates across the room screaming now. Nick tries to hold me back but I can't think, I can't breathe. all I see is her face, crying. I hate myself. I throw every plate, and I move on to the glass cups when I hear some steps on the stairs and some yelling. I see Nick in the staircase pushing someone to go back up and telling them not to come closer. who is that? charli? charli! I need to get her over here. I scream as I fall to the ground sobbing. I cant form a clear thought as I see someone running to me, just a blurry shadow. I see her face, crying. I scream over and over, "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" she ignores nicks yells and falls onto the ground grabbing me and gasping for air I hold her tighter.
LOL this is incredibly dramatic and only half written but I wanted to give you guys something. anyways in writing a new book about Joshua Bassett and Olivia Rodrigo it would mean the world if you would check it out. stay safe, m