Forgotten Luna

part 12

So it's been several year but quarantine 2020 has us at it again. I do not have cleos editing as it's been years since I messaged her but I have grown myself and feel confident so here we goo!
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Jesse's POV

I cant believe I had been so wrapped up at taking in information , the woods around whirled around me as I stood with poor footing, I stumbled slightly pulling away from Keeans wooly new form.

I am a committed woman , I've never cheated!

I felt like I was on a tiltawhirl , I reached up to grab and cover my face but my hands wouldnt reach , they were paws , I am wolf , I'm lying with a were wolf , I am a werewolf!
I feel like I cant process this all right now , I shudder in dismay at my own situation .
I need to breathe ..
With a little slack my jaw opens and I release a large guest from my lungs i didnt realize I was holding onto desperately .
I looked down at my own feet , I was never the type to even consider two boys.
But I've had a really interesting time getting to know Jace,  it's been so sweet and patient.
We were talking big milestones in the next years , all about college's and apartments .
And where we would be, and what we could accomplish , together.
But what now ?
The greenery above me swayed slightly in the wind , could feel a breeze in fur , it began at my back and rushed up my neck and across my face.
I had seen so much brutality in this world already, I may not be cut out for it. Although,
I may not be cut out for the the truth bomb I have to drop on one of these lovely young men.
Keean deserves a strong woman. A woman who knows her place in this world. A woman who can assist him , lead with him and defend her people. Hes got so much soul and determination,  a protector and leader to the core. He would do anything for me and I feel that undeniably , he makes me feel electrified in his presence, condemned by those eyes..
. I'm the candle and he could be my flame.
And theres Jace ,
Well Jace is a gentle boy , he coasted his way into my life at a simpler time. He fits so well, we watch the same the movies , we've bonded. He held me when my parents spent the weekend fighting , my dad left overnight and I wasnt sure if he was going to come back.
Jace reassured me on the fact that relationships dont last forever sometimes but it doesnt change the love that existed. Sometimes the past is there to remind us of the beauty inside life , sometimes it haunts us , as it seemed it was hauntinf my parents.
They were lost on an issue from years ago when my father took an opportunity with a friend he shouldnt have .
My mom never let him live it or the consequences of it down , it made our life as a family harder and we struggled financially for a while. I poured my heart out to have on his bed that day. It was only a month or so ago now. I stared at the sheets red faced and blotchy,  sniffling and sucking back snot from the tears that didnt stop streaming. Those sheets were blue,
"three shades of blue.."I murmed , breathing in hard as his hand traced my back. During my years I had laid across his lap , him sitting straight up on the edge of the bed and me just this mess across his lap. His hand paused and I felt him shift "What?" He laughed lightly ,obviously hoping to change the mood

In the midst of my tears and hysteria that was the only thing I managed to get out that seemed calm . I laughed out loud , I sat up gingerly while managing to keep my face out of his view , I wiped my face lightly as if it would help my appearance before turning to him.

I looked down shyly and raised a hand to my hair ,
"I've noticed everything around you is tailored around the colour blue." He looked at me with that smirk he gave me when I talked about him to him, a knowing smile that he released in our beat conversations.

"Three shades of blue to be exact . Never any others , the deep blue of your sheets and the strip on your wall there?" , I pointed to his wall at my left while had a blue thick strip in the center of it with white edging, " that's the darkest. Its everywhere in hints , and the lighter blue of the wall around the stripes. And the one you wear , it matches your eyes."
He looked at me with eyes that always tore me up. He loved everything I said , he helped me appreciate the way I look at the world. I never realised how simplistic everything had the potential to be.

I couldnt chose him.
I couldn't choose Jace.
"Good, I wouldnt let you choose him. Its my choice too.my mate means my soul is complete, two halves of a whole." Her words echoed in my head , as I tiled it in a swift motion, thinking intently on her words I snapped back to reality, I stood quickly whilst checking my hands -paws, again .
Still paws .
I flexed my toes and watched the nail protrude slightly , white fur glistening against the deep colours of the earth while I moved .
I raised my head slightly to face Keean.
He had sat up and been studying me during my episode,  my flashbacks to my relation ship with Jace,  how unfair of me to been deep in my mind with another man when my true soulmate was beside me .
I couldnt deny the connection. The sparks on my skin when he touched me and how cold it felt when i pulled away from each him.

He stood slowly raising his toned body , he grey fur that been mixed with mine so closely previously, we were wrapped up in each so tightly . My wolf was howling in joy at that , I could feel it deep inside of me.

Would keean give me the opportunity to find out truly if this is for me ? Or am I forced to be here now. Do i get to speak to jace again, the stand of in the the food court left me with shivers.

Jace also said..
It would make sense for how he was acting against keean and his pack..
I looked at keean hard ,and edged my face closer to his.
His eyes bore into mine , looking at every inch as if trying to read my mind, dodging side to side slightly to see every inch of my expression.  I
Lowered my head slightly ,hears tilted back and leaned into him, waiting for that first spark when we contacted each other , I was addicted.
Before I even made contact with his beautiful fur I hear footsteps slamming into the earth,  keean raised his nose to the air on full alert , taking in what was around him in carefully but quickly .
He looked at me and jerked his head to the side as if to follow him.
He took of with such speed , I cant believe it ,the grace his body carried , I want to lose myself in it , and when hes in human form with his hands against my skin..
I really need to stop thinking like this ,  itll be the death of me, I thought as I shook away any remnants of lustful thoughts . I pushed through bushes and flowers at the base of a tree to bound behind my mate ,
My mate .
It sounded so good to say that.. so comfortable yet it's so strange..