talk || book 7 of 'she's a dixon'

chapter 13

 "come on kids, let's go back inside. let me take advantage of this while i'm here" negan said standing up. "here little dixon" negan said handing judith off to me. "hey baby" i whispered bouncing her up and down. 

"hey carl, has your dad ever taught you how to shave? i see you're starting to grow a little scruffle there" negan said pointing to carl's chin. carl shook his head no. "well come on then!" negan said walking inside. 

" i got her, it's okay" i whispered to carl. he nodded and followed negan inside. shortly after him, i followed also. i need to keep carl in my sight. 

negan lead carl into the main bathroom downstairs and kept the door open. i waited outside holding judith as negan shaved his beard and taught carl how to do it. 

"alright! now look there! clean cut!" negan said turning around and facing carl with a smile once he was done. negan then quickly snapped his head towards the door. "seriously? no privacy? i'm trying to give carl a lesson about being a man here, and you just have to stand by and watch?" negan asked me. i didn't say a word. 

"now, what should we do next? you kids hungry? i can make some damn good spaghetti" negan said looking back and forth between carl and i. "spaghetti it is" negan said with a smile walking out of the bathroom. 

 carl stood up from the chair he was sitting in and walked over to me. "here" carl said holding out his arms. i handed judith off to him. 

after following negan to the kitchen we stood by and watched while he made spaghetti. he seemed to be enjoying himself. "damn that smells good" negan said talking a sniff of the sauce. 

getting a wooden spoon he dipped it into the sauce and tasted it. he then walked over to carl and i holding out the same spoon. "want a taste?" negan asked us. neither of us said anything and negan chuckled. 

 i walked over to the window. "going somewhere little dixon?" negan asked. "no" i responded looking out of the window. some of negans men came with us to alexandria. they were waiting outside with guns ready. 

"little dixon, come sit. it's time to eat" negan said a short time later. i had been watching by the window in hopes that rick would show up. but he didn't. 

 olivia was in the kitchen holding judith as she finished making the lemonade that negan had requested. i went and joined negan and carl at the dinner table. negan sat at the far end, carl sat next to him, and i took a seat in front of carl which was next to negan. 

we ate in silence. "may i leave the table" i asked negan. i decided to ask negan first so i don't piss him off too much. "go ahead" he said giving me permission. i took my dirty dishes to the sink, and then made my way to the front door. 

stepping out onto the porch, i kept the door open behind me. i wanted to keep a watch over everything to make sure that no trouble happens with negan's men waiting outside. 

'you okay?' tara mouthed to me from a distance. i nodded. although i was scared out of my mind, i'm okay.

 spencer started walking towards the front steps of the porch. "can i go inside?" spencer asked the person who was guarding the house for negan. "no" she responded. " i just want to talk to him" spencer said trying again. " i said no" she said again. 

 i looked inside the house at negan who was walking towards the front door. "don't be an asshole arat. let the man pass" negan said stepping out onto the porch. arat moved to let spencer pass. 

 i gave spencer the death glare. i know whatever he was gonna try to do would not be good. negan looked down at me with a smile and chuckled. he picked onto my facial expressions. 

 spencer walked up the porch steps and held up a bottle of whiskey. "oh crap. is that for me?" negan asked. "we haven't officially met. i'm spencer monroe. hi" spencer said to negan introducing himself. 

" wanna join us for a drink little dixon?" negan said to me with a smile. i rolled my eyes and walked back into the house. "what's spencer doing?" carl asked me. " i have no idea" i said with a sigh. 

after standing in silence for a few minutes i leaned my head against carls shoulder. " i'm sorry for dragging you into this" i whispered. "don't be. like i said a while back, it's you and me until the end rae. i'll stand by your side no matter what's going on" carl said resting his head on mine. 

" i love you" i whispered. " i love you too" carl whispered back.