Sad Loki Imagines

Ray

The dark room Illuminated by the moon that shone through the window. There was knife in my hand, all i know is i have to kill someone and i did, i found him but when i stabbed him, he didn't die. I was confused, walking back away slowly staring at him with wide scared eyes. Was i scared for my life? No, i think i had just made a monster immortal. This is much more worst than dying.
*blackout*

I woke up to a scene of me and my brother playing, innocent days of ours. We were just two brothers playing, no responsibilities whatsoever. But i sense something was off with the memory, the two children look directly at me, their sclera was black like an Abyss. I back away.
*Blackout*

Standing infront a horde of Bilgesnipe, i felt safe that there is strong fence that keeps them from attacking me. Turning around i saw a younger bilgesnipe about to attack me, i tried to fight it but the only thing i found to be a weapon was a thin stick. Still, i tried to fight it, but the stick broke. Anticipating the pain that i will soon feel yet i black out.
*black out*

Standing in a staircase, a gun was in my hand. Two person slowly walk towards me but i shooted them, i didn't know why but i did. Looking closely i saw that it was the rich man that i killed in a party, in Germany. Beside his dead body was coulson, i remember him. "That was a great shot"said a man above end of the staircase, i don't know him. Suddenly there are people below the staircase looking at the dead bodies with stoic face, their eyes shifted on me. They all fell in a pool of their own blood, mixing together. Behind them was a group of people who had guns in their hands as well, they run up the stairs some passing over me. I hear gun shots, looking up. The man from before was also dead, these people surrounded me. I sat there, shut my eyes tightly close waiting them to kill me as well, but it never came. Opening my eyes to them, their eyes were wide and dark looking down at me.  blinking my eyes a few time till my surrounding change to that dark room, surrounded by more evil people. a voice spoke

"You couldn't live with your own failure. Where did that bring you, back to me"

Loki startled awake, beads of sweat on his skin, his heart beating faster and his trembling. Looking around his bedroom, he was on earth. Hiding from Thor who knew he was dead, but it turns out he was the one who is dead. All the superheroes are dead, and the ones who are close to them that didn't turn into dust are living like a soulless shell.

"The sun never shined on them again, to all of them who are left behind"

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I didn't know why i am explaining this 'imagine'/oneshot. Maybe Because i thought no one would get it, this was inspired from my nightmare.
There were 4 scenarios in one dream.

1. About Loki giving the tesseract to Thanos,(A.K.A stabbing him).
2. About Loki's past, it still hunts him. Like what if, what if he just stayed in his brother's side, in Thor's shadow. Be a good brother.
3. The Bilgesnipe represents 2 people, first the people who hated him. They are just waiting to attack him. Second Hella, the feeling of being helpless that he can't even fight her, still he tried somehow.
4. Was the attack on new york, i made that obvious. The unknown man was like the other Loki, the part of him that he didn't knew existed, it also kind of his past self before he fell unto the blackhole. Then after more deaths, he was back at square one, this time more people wants to use him. The 4 dreams are an endless cycle.

I am sorry if all of this is confusing, i am too.