Sad Loki Imagines

The day you said goodbye

She watch from a rooftop, on the other far side of the palace. It was the wedding of her love, Loki.

She watch as Loki take his new bride on their first wedding dance, you couldn't see them clearly but if you did, it will hurt you alot, more than you are already now.

He wasn't happy about this as much as you, you were the one who push him into this.

Odin had been demanding for grandchildren from Loki, however you can't seem to get pregnant. He did everything he could to make you pregnant, that includes magic but nothing work, the All-father wanted him to remarry yet Loki always refuse. He Loves you more than anything, more than his title as prince, more than being a God.

Hearing the comments and rumors going around about you and Loki, you just can't take it anymore, of how they belittle him just because you can't have a child, it was not his fault; it was yours. So you had found a new wife for him, someone who can give him a Heir(what about that horse).

Loki had excuse himself to the bathroom which is a lie of course, he is the God of Mischief and lies after all. He went looking for you everywhere in the palace, no one expected you to be in the celebration, well, who would. Everyone thought she was a disgrace for failing her job as a woman.

"There you are"Loki sighs in relief, softly he smiled as he take a few stride towards you, for the first time that day he smiled. Finding you at the rooftop, Loki removes his cape to wrapped it around your shoulder.

"You should be inside Love, i don't want you to catch a cold"he hugs you over your waist, nuzzling his face on the crook of your neck

"Loki don't call me that again and go back, your wife is waiting for you"you attempt to push him away,but his firm hold over you makes you fail.

"I am already with my wife, sygin is only as good as a baby maker"Loki mumbles in your skin.

"Don't say that, Sygin is a nice lady. You should atleast try to get along with her, don't treat her that way, Loki."pulling away, to see his face that never fails to mesmerize you.

"I wont, if you promise that you will still stay by my side"he sound too pitiful, like a begging child.

"You-you know i cannot do that, i am not your wife anymore. Sygin is, i know she will love you and take care of you like i did. Give her chance"

Loki looks down on the floor.
"Where would you go?"he ask, his eyes fix on the floor.

"Somewhere far, don't worry i had planned my departure well. I'd be leaving later" His eyes widens, looking back at you shock. Loki walks closer to you pulling out a necklace from his pocket.

"This is for you"you were about to protest but he puts the necklace on your neck right away.

"When i became your lover, i had promised myself that i'll make you happy. I guess the only thing i am good at is breaking promises, and losing those i love"you held his hand looking at him, his eyes were on the emerald stone necklace, with a snake holding the jewel.

"Don't be so hard on yourself. I love you, okay? This is best for the both of us"you lean in to kiss his cheeks one last time before you walk pass him.

"No it isn't, you thought it was but it's not. We both know we need each other"his eyes falls down on the floor again, tears threatening to fall.

"I am not the one you needed, i love you. Goodbye Loki"

**the silence, i'm screaming, calling out your name**

Loki stood there his head down, as she pass him, walking towards the stairs. Listening to the song that is currently playing from the ballroom where the venue was. It was strange that it was playing on a white veil occasion.

**If you could only know me like your prayers at night.
Then everything between you and me will be alright.**

He smirk bitterly at the lyrics, oh how he could relate. Were their life being played?(yes, by me)

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A few weeks later, she manage to settle in Midgaurd. A little house in a small town on an asian country

She woke up with a start of dizziness, she thought that it was quite sudden tho she brush it off. Then a little later she vomited, she thought it was another weird thing.

Hearing the door of her house closing, she quickly wash her mouth and flush the vomit on the toilet.

"Heya there"her friend greeted, popping her head on the bathroom.

Turning around to face her friend, her friend named Yumi suddenly got worried.

"You okay? You don't look so good"Yumi ask, you gave her a cheerful smile to push her worry away.

"I am fine, let's go to work"you told her, she answered sure tho she was still alittle concern.

The both of you work in a convient store, where the two of you met. Yumi was a sweet girl, living the world without a family so you had treated her like a sister and Yumi did the same to you.

"Maybe we should go see a doctor, i am still thinking of your sudden sickness this morning"Yumi said while mopping the store.

"Don't be such a worr-"you were interrupted by the Tv playing, you open the telivision at times that there are less customer.

They were reporting about the rumor of the God of mischief Joining the avengers.

"Oh really, he is joining the avengers? He must have had a change of heart"Yumi commented, your heart skip a beat at the thought of him, you still loved him after all.

"Y/n? Y/n?"she called out, you were snap back to reality, looking at your only friend.

"That's it! were going to see a doctor when our shift is done"she annoyedly said, putting away the mop.

You sigh in defeat, Yumi was also obstinate. Hours later, you had said your goodbye to the manager and co-employee.

Yumi drag you to the nearest hospital, she was really suspecting something yet was afraid to admit it unless came from a professional.

After an hour or two of being on hospital, you clutch tightly the bottles of vitamins and medicine that was given to you.

"So who is the father of your child?"your friend absent mindedly ask as the two of you ride the bus.

"I don't want to talk about him, his out of my life now" you answered as you stared straight at what is infront of you.

"I see... oh well, i'll help you on your mommy journey. Hey there kid, i'll be your best Aunty EVER!"she speaks to your tummy.

"I am so greatful for having you Yumi"you said, patting her head. She smiled brightly.

"You're my sister, and sisters should help and support each other"Yumi hugs you, kissing your head.

On the way to your home, you still kept wondering about the child, it will grow up without a father. Would it hate you for not telling it's father? What if Loki found out himself? How will he react?You held the necklace tight as you sigh, pushing all the thoughts down the drain.

"I'll leave tomorrow's problem, to tomorrow's me"

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The lyrics are a bit random, but i swear that song still makes me cry for a boyfriend that i never had