(Warning- trigger warning,don't read if it brings back past memories.)
LOUIS~
You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
Maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me
You woke up to the bright light of the sun entering your room from the window.On the table you did not see the empty cup of tea like usual.After the fight last night, you didn't really feel like making yourself a cup of tea.But what surprised you was the two arms that were engulfing you.
(last night.Y/N's Pov)
It was 2:00am.Louis is not yet home at.I am sitting on the couch and reading a book though my mind was wandering somewhere else.Why is Louis coming back home late everyday?Does he even love me anymore?Is he cheating on me?I was busy with my own thoughts when I heard the door being opened and closed and a very drunk Louis entering.
"Why are you so late everyday?"I asked him,crossing my hands over myself.He went inside the kitchen to get himself a glass of water.
"Louis I am asking you something.Why are you so late every fucking day?" I asked, strictly.
"Maybe because I don't want to see your face bitch.Anyways,who are you to ask me why am I so late?You're not my mother.Kindly,move aside."
His words stung me and the pain I felt was a like a thousand bees stinging into my body.I gathered my strength.
"Maybe because I care for my boyfriend.Do you even love me anymore Louis?"
"I don't really think so.And stop asking me all these questions bitch.You're even worse than the paparazzi."
His words stung.Tears threatend to fall from my eyes but I tried my best to prevent them from falling."Get yourself together Y/N.Get yourself together."I told myself.
"Are you cheating on me Louis?"
"For God's sake Y/N,stop acting like a slutty bitch and leave me alone!"
You couldn't take it anymore.The tears fell freely as you made your way to the bedroom and started crying.Louis has never behaved with you like this.You felt your heart breaking.You hugged the teddy bear,which Louis had brought you on your second anniversary close to yourself and cried until you fell asleep.
(end of flashback)
You shifted in your position and turned around to see Louis,staring at you with his ocean blue eyes which has become reddish.His cheeks were stained with tears.He was crying.
"Why are you here?When did you come in?"
"Last night after you came upstairs,I felt guilty and realized mistake so I came up to apologize.I saw you sleeping peacefully with the teddy bear clutched close to yourself.You looked cute and I didn't wanna wake you up so I joined you.I couldn't sleep all night"
"Your words hurt me Louis.Do you know how sick I was of you coming late every night?"
"I know baby.I know.I am so sorry for that.I promise you it will never happen again."He said,interwining one of his hands with yours while the other hand played with your hair.
"But love,why didn't you tell me you...you we...were raped?"
Your heart skipped a beat and you felt a chill run down your spine.
"Why didn't you tell me that you were bullied in your high school and you resorted to cutting for that?Why love?Why did you hide it all?"He cried as he said these words.
"But.....but Louis?Ho....how did yo...you get to kn...know about all this?"You were stammering.Afraid of his reaction.Afraid of the fact that he might leave you.
"You were talking about all this in your sleep love.You were crying and talking about it all.Y/N,I feel devastated after hearing all this.You could have told me love."
The way he was talking made you feel guilty.You kept your gaze staring at the ceiling, ashamed of yourself.What were you feeling ashamed of?Sleep talking?Or hiding your biggest secret from your boyfriend?
"This isn't the first time you are sleep talking my love.You have done this quite a few times before.I find it adorable,even though sometimes I don't really understand what you're saying.All those conversations are a secret.I don't reveal them to anyone.It has and will always stay between just the two of us."
You closed your eyes tightly and let the tears fall.
"No Y/N,no.Come to me baby."
You held him tightly and burying your face on the croon of his neck cried.He rubbed circles on your back, calming you down.The incident came back on your mind which caused you to cry more.He rested his chin on your forehead while tears feel from his eyes into your (your natural hair colour) hair.
"He took away my innocence Lou bear.That son of a rascal tortured me for two nights until the police found me.And high school was a disaster.I was hated by everyone in high school for this.Everyday I would get hate comments from someone or the other.It was too much to tolerate.I couldn't help it.I am sorry.I am sorry."
"Shhhh love,you're safe with me now.I am sorry that I couldn't be with you during all those painful times.I am sorry I couldn't save you.But now when you're by my side,no one can harm you.And I am not letting you harm yourself either."
He took your face in his hands and wiped off the tears with his thumb.He kisses your forehead.The kiss was warm and gentle.
"I am sorry for last night.I promise it will never happen again."He said holding you close."It's okay Lou Bear."You said smiling to yourself.
You look up to him and his soft lips met yours,sharing the most wonderful kiss,where his lips brushed yours softly and you could inhale his breath.At the end of the day,you knew that you have your boyfriend and you are safe with him.
It's longer than I expected it to be😅.I hope you like it!😊
~KokoChocoNutella🍫💋
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