Coruscate

Five

Being here opened up wounds that are not yet healed.

I opened my dump account to back read on Ethan's Twitter profile. He has been very vocal about him having a girlfriend but tried so hard to not reveal my name and face.

He has a huge following in his socials and is quite famous as the rebel son of the CEO of Salazar Inc. Fortunately, no one found out we were dating. But I'm thinking if I should reveal to the world about us. My parents are no longer here to reprimand me anyway. And it'll be a huge slap in the face to my ex boyfriend and ex bestfriend.

Zennary had a huge crush on Ethan. Part of the reason she didn't know about me and Ethan because I was afraid it'll break her heart.

Richie was not on good terms with Ethan. Rival companies and all. That's why my parents made me date Richie, they liked their company and hated Ethan's.

I just updated my Twitter after a long while. I'm not really a social media person but being rich and pretty has its perks. I also had a huge following.

I saw some tweets on what happened earlier. Also videos of the jerk and the snake swapping saliva. Looks like Zenn is slowly going down because people were siding with me.

Seeing Ethan's grave made me a little rebellious. I'll face the consequences later. I just don't want to seem weak.

Woooahhh that was fast. Right, I blocked both of them on my phone. That's why they're publically trying to reach me. I'm feeling revengeful so I ignore them. I'll be dropping truth bombs today.

It's true though. I only loved Ethan and only dated Richie because of my parents. I never liked Richie, I just tolerated him. I did try but nothing. Most of the time, I was pretending and feigning interest. Di ko talaga nagawang mahalin si Richie kaya di nadin ako masyado nagtaka na magkagusto siya sa iba. Even if alam kong minahal niya talaga ako. I just can't seem to move on from Ethan even after all these years.

I know posting online about me and Ethan will have a huge backlash. I shut my phone down. Natatakot ako sa magiging reaction ng public. But I feel so light na ipaalam sa mundo ang tungkol samin ni Ethan. Even after his death kasi ay tago ang naging relasyon namin.

"Baby, I just told the world about us. I feel like a huge rock has been lifted off my back. Sana pwede ko na din ipaalam sa lahat na I'm now an orphan. Kasi parang I'm not entitled to feel pain ehh. Kasi nobody knows."

Biglang umihip ang hangin. Pakiramdam ko niyayakap ako ni Ethan ngayon.

"I miss you baby. I miss my parents. Pwede na ba ko sumunod sainyo? I feel so alone. I just want to be with you. I only ever felt truly loved by you."

Tumutulo na naman ang mga luha ko. I really really have the urge to just get this over with. I have no parents, i have no bestfriend, my boyfriend cheated on me, and my love is dead. I have no one. My lolo doesn't even care about me because I'm not a guy and I'm only half chinese. He'll be glad Richie and I broke up, I know he just wants me to be married to some rich pure chinese. Richie maybe rich but he's not chinese.

One of the reasons why I just announced my love for Ethan. I know my lolo will make me date someone else he approves of anyway.

Why is my life like this?

It's raining! It feels like the sky is crying with me.

Kung hindi pa umulan hindi pa ako aalis sa cemetery. I ran to my car and sat there soaking wet. I drove towards my condo. I feel so tired.

Pagkarating ko sa kwarto ko, binuksan ko ang phone ko. As expected, my lolo is trying to reach me. Our publicist must have warned him of what I have done.

"Hi grandpa" I sighed answering his call.

"Kristia Serene. Do you know what you did? We have to fix the damage of you breaking up with that Richie guy."

"He cheated on me. There are lots of proof on the internet of him cheating on me with my bestfriend. I never cheated on him when we were together. Tell your publicist and lawyers about that."

"Alright. I never liked that guy for you anyway. Your father was the only one who did. We'll announce the news of your parents's death next week. Then you'll be introduced to Mr. Sy's grandson. He's the better option for a husband. Their business might not be as big as your ex-boyfriend's but they're a booming business that we will benefit from years from now."

"Please delete your online posts and behave yourself. Goodbye."

I knew it. I don't want to be forced into another arranged relationship. I can't even remember who the heir of the Sys.

I just deleted my tweets earlier and shut my phone again. I drank sleeping pills and laid on my bed.

Can I just not wake up anymore?