Denial ~ Tony Lopez (read description)

♡ Chapter Fourteen ♡

-Isabella's Pov-

Major Trigger Warning

I wanted to be anywhere but here, the sound of my screams weren't loud enough for anybody to hear me.
I ran and ran until my legs fell weak but I still tried to pull myself off the ground.
He catches up to me, grabs my arms and pulls me back into his chest where he holds a soft grip around my neck. He whispers in an evil tone "I'm not finished with you bitch".
I slowly feel my air cut off and the distant sounds of clicking fingers fill my head.
I snap out of my day dream with a gasp and realise that I was still sat in the headmasters office.

"Damn it Jordan, still haunting me" I mutter under my breath.
"What was that Miss Duff?".
I look up to see the five teachers just staring at me with some form of judgement.
I shake my head and lean back in my seat.
"Nothing sir" I say trying to smile through my fear.
For the past week I've had the worst nightmares, all about Jordan.

"Well Isabella, we've reviewed all of your reports and everything you have told us and I'm afraid it's just not good enough, you're permanently banned from school campus" The headteacher says sternly.
"w-what" my jaw drops. I felt as if I wanted to cry but I couldn't let myself, not infront of all these teachers.
I tuck a strand of hair behind my head and my sleeve falls a little bit.
"Izzy- what is that blue mark around your wrist?" One of the other teachers ask concerned.
I glance down at my still bruised wrist.
Gosh Jordan must have grabbed me so hard for it to bruise for this long.
I look at all five of the teachers before standing up and rushing out of the office.
I run down the crowded corridors and get stopped by Tony.
I avoid eye contact with him as my mascara starts to stream down my face along with my tears.
"Isabella what's wrong?!" He asks cradling me.
"I can't- not right not- I cant" I say leaving him confused.
I free myself from his grip and rush out of campus.

"Izzy!"
"Izzy are you okay?" I hear more familiar voices. But it wasn't Tony or anybody else from the hype house.
I stop dead in my tracks and turn around to see....

Josh Richards and Jaden Hossler? Yeah... I met them at chase's party.
"Y-yeah I'm fine" I lie.
"Are you sure, you're shaking" Jaden says worried.
"No honestly, I'm okay" I nod.
"Shouldn't you be in class by now?" Josh asks.
More tears slip as I slowly take a step back.
"Um- no I have something I need to do I'll catch up with you guys later I promise" I say before turning back around and carrying on running.

I finally make it back home and rush upstairs ignoring my mom.

I wasn't sure how much more of my life I could take, my past haunts me every damn day. I didn't want to die I just needed the pain to stop completely.

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I grab my razor and slice three cuts into my skin.
It still wasn't enough, the pain never left me it just lingered.
I grabbed pieces of paper and started writing little notes on for each person I knew and left them on my bed knowing that my room would be the first place they would check for me.
I grabbed the bottles of vodka that I had hidden underneath my bed and jump out of my window, landing safely on the ground... somehow.

I didn't want Jack or my mother aware of me disappearing.
It started to get a little bit dark, seems like I had spent more time on those notes than I thought.
I rush up to the building that Tony took me to the other night, downing four bottles of vodka on the way before shakily climbing to the top.

Like I said before... I didn't want to die. I just wanted the pain to go away.
I sit down on the edge of the building and take a deep breath, looking out at the beautiful view that was infront of me.

One thought swirling through my clogged up mind... is this really worth it?