🌼Vanilla Bean🌼

Part 3

C H A P T E R  T H R E E: Why am I still writing about you

STOP THINKING ABOUT HER!!

It'snotpossible. It'snotpossible. It'snotpossible.

It's crazy how much time already passed and I cant seem to get over you. I still think about you, I still dream about you, I still write about you.

Cas, get out of my head.

Lol, I just realized that Dean said something similar to Castiel.

Anyways, I can't really stop thinking about you?

Is it because I never got closure?

Is it because I really loved you?

Is it because I was envious of you? Having the proper "high school experience"?

Did I really genuinely like you?

Maybe it's because if we kept talking we could have actually been great friends even until now.

All I know is that you are always in my head. I need you to leave. Pack up all the memories of you and fade away with them. I don't think we can ever be friends again.

I really enjoyed being around you. Hugging you. Holding your hand. Kissing your cheek.

You are telling me you had no idea I was into you?

I don't believe you. Everyone noticed that I was. Kissing your cheek was not normal and yet you didn't say anything. Why is that?

Was it because you didn't want it to be true?

I asked you once what you would do if I was not straight. You said nothing. You were still going to treat me the same and it didn't matter my sexual orientation.

Point is I should just let it go.

Let you go.