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Part 8

C H A P T E R  8: Goodbye Cas. 

I think I am finally over you.

I wish I could have gotten closure with you. I guess writing here is how I am getting my closure.

I want to message you and ask you what happened. Why did you stop talking to me? Was it my fault? Did you get tired of me? Were you just talking to me out of pity?

But it won't make sense me asking because we were friends and not like dating so it's like okay?? Get over it?? Haha

I stopped dreaming of you, I stopped thinking about you, I stopped writing about you. You were living rent-free in my brain, but now I am over you. 

I'm glad. It only took 5 years but whatever, you are gone. I wonder what became of you? Are you still planning on going to UCLA? Are you still planning to major in fashion? 

I wonder if you knew I liked you? I asked you if you were into girls who your wcw would be! I mean could I have been any more obvious??  

I should stop wondering about you, that way I can finally leave you behind. I deleted your picture. I'm sure I have another one of you and if I find it I will delete it too.

It was nice knowing you. Thank you for making me feel special those times we hung out. Especially in 9th grade, we really got to spend more time together. Thanks for buying me things when we went out. 

I love you. I loved you. I think I romanticized our time spend together too much hah that's on me and so I don't blame you are anything, like why should I blame you. Hopefully, I can finally sleep at peace without you interrupting my dreams and my constant thoughts.