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Billie has been in a mood lately and she's not on her period so i don't understand why. It's constant too we wake up she fine but the second she or i or anyone even breathes wrong she's immediately annoyed. It's so fucking annoying i was having such a bad day yesterday and she didn't even care. Is she losing feeling for me am i being a bitch? Did i do something wrong, is it my fault? Is she gonna break up with me is she cheating? everyday these thought go through my head. I don't want to lose her she's the absolute love of my life and i genuinely don't want to think about what i'd do to myself if i wouldn't be able to kiss her, especially if i caused her too feel that way. Every time i try to talk to her about it she pushes me away and i don't wanna push it, growing up in an abusive family makes you never ever wanna even think about pushing someone's buttons. She's downstairs blasting music and it's giving me a headache. So i go downstairs and ask her to turn it off.
"bub" no answer
"baby" no answer she saw me walk downstairs
"baaaaabe" no answer
"Billie!"
"What!" she said slightly yelling making me flinch
"please turn the music down my-"
"no"
i stood there dumbfounded while she went back to dancing like a maniac, tears threatened to fall why wasn't i good enough for her. She realized i was still standing there, so she turned the music down
"what y/n"
"if you are gonna be a bitch in MY house you can go back to yours cuz i'm fucking done with this attitude that you have billie i'm SO done with this shit." i said
"Excuse me" she said pissed off
"you heard me eilish"
"Why am I being a bitch? bro are you fucking kidding me i've had a rough week and you just HAVENT left me alone, i understand you are my girlfriend but I also need space y/n!" she said walking up to me
"Then why haven't you gone to YOUR house where YOU can have alllll the privacy that YOU want?! Huh!" i said a tear falling from my cheek
"why are you cryin-"
"Why am i not good enough for you billie" i said letting the tears just come out. She stopped and for a moment i saw the billie i fell in love with the one who cared about me not the one who is a bitch toward me.
she rubbed her face with her hands "y/n you are perfect, i don't know what you're talking about not being good enough because i wake up everyday thinking about how fucking lucky i am to even have you look my way and smile at me. I'm sorry for making you feel any type of way my love" she said pulling me into a hug and carrying me upstairs to my bedroom.
"let's talk" she said sitting down in the bed, i was still tearing up like a little bitch. "Jeez mamas i'm sorry i was acting like a total asshole, i- i never meant to make you feel like this i just got upset with the world and i shouldn't have shut you out i'm so so so so so sorry baby i'm literally so in love with you, you have no idea. You make everything feel better and you make me feel like the luckiest woman alive every time you look at me." she said tearing up
"why are you crying" i said giggling a little
"i hate when i make you feel this way i hate myself so much that i make you cry, it pains me to see you hurt and it's worse when it's bc i couldn't stop being fucking petty" We talked about what has been going on lately and hugged each other not wanting to let go.
"i'll make it up to you" she said
"how" i asked
"we can make my special cookies" she said smiling knowing how much i love her cookies.
"you ok with that?" she asked
"mhm" i said placing a kiss on her lips. We made our way to the kitchen and started making the cookies.
I sat on the counter as billie placed the cookies in the oven. She put on some sabrina claudio and came over to me standing in between my legs pulling me towards her chest. We rocked back n fourth to the song forgetting about everything that happened. This is my person
