OK, fine.

ok so.

I did a first part, when i got on the plane, then i passed out the whole flight read the other part and well...

I'm not going to post that lol

As i got more and more sleepy i started arguing with myself and it got super ugly and vulgar and bad things were said and basically, no one wants to read a bunch of messages of someone half asleep fighting with himself about stupid shite.

So I'm making a new post instead.

So, I'm an hour from landing.

And I'm Bored.

And i have no idea what else to say Dx

Though these planes have phone chargers!!!

Huzzah!!

However i can't afford the in flight wifi so..

Meh...

And they didn't even give me in flight peanuts :/

The peanuts were 5 dollars for a tiny little bag Dx

Very pricy.

Nywys, phone chargers!!!

Also, that's a thing i noticed, anyone ever stop to think About the tiny ways we affect each other..?

Like i usually keep track of every little thing i do differently.

I put heh every other line because i picked that habit up from Indy,

I say morning as the first thing to everyone then how are you as the second, because Reid always got mad at me that i never asked about him unless he was seemingly not ok, so i fixed that.

I half smile a lot, because i read in a book of someone doing that and thought, That's exactly how i want this emotion to be perceived by others! Lol

And many, many other things.

But i never really sat down to consider what little things others picked up from me, you know?

At least not until the other day,

So after paying attention i found friends of mine who use the word "nywys" instead of anyways.

Those Who also picked up on adding dots to the end of words of varying amounts based on levels of emotions.

I even saw a friend of mine using pick up lines i jokingly wrote Dx

And this all got me thinking,

I've always been an exuberant fan of the mentality that love can be measured simply by how close to becoming one, two people are.

You know?

Which on paper is a rather beautifully quantified theory, but in actuality?

How can one measure how close two people are? I mean, it's easy to know when 2 have become 1, And easy to know when they haven't heh..

But exactly how close are they..?

And ive been thinking, all this slowly adopting each others traits..

Is that a measure of love?

Are we capable of determining who we're closest too simply by how much they feel less and less like another person and more and more like a part of ourselves..?

The more i thought of this, the more likely to be the case it seemed.

But two thoughts also occurred, two consequences to this assuming it be accurate.

The first, doesn't that make hate no different than simply the other side of the same coin love is..?

It's no scarce knowledge, that the stronger you hate something, the more like that thing you become.

Human nature and all.

There was a batman quote for this...

"You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain"

And i realize, that isn't that different from loving something or someone.

We cum into this world, with no sense of really anything, yet live with style, purpose, drive, rhythm, and a lot else.

Whose to say my love for a type of music didn't influence how i dress?

How i present myself?

Me myself didn't change, but what i love changed me in a way, otherwise not logically feasible.

And hating something does the same,

We are who we are, not by the influences of this world in our life, but the influences we ourselves choose to allow to mold us.

The second thing that occurred to me bfor, is how little i personally embody really anything.

Sure i pick up a shite ton of traits of everyone i care about, but...

That is it.

In what way am i unique?

How am i different from everyone if i only ever seem to embody others or do things because of others?

What exactly, is me..?

When i tear away everything about me that is only there because of others influence, what am i left with?

Who is that?

It's just a scared naive child with a natural knack for romanticism, and no real desires past wanting to be loved :/

Not sure if that's good, or bad.

But that's what it is.

That's me.

Hmm :/

I've been ranting far too long heh...

So I'll keep the rest of this train of thought in my own head xP

Goodbye for now.

I have a boring ass flight to get back to xP

-nohj~