Attempts

Chapter 8

Today I decided to break my routine and start cleaning the house. So, I got up and started cleaning while talking to Ava on the phone.

"Thats it. He just walked you to your place and bid you goodnight." Asked Ava after telling her the whole night with Michael on speaker.

"Yes thats all that happened"

"Why didn't you ask him"

"Ask him what" of course I know what she means the question that I wanted to ask in the last 7 years why did he go and leave me hurting alone.

"Never mind so I think I can come and visit you next week with Todd" thats why I love her she knows when I am uncomfortable with the topic and change it without questions

"That's great news but doesn't he have to work"

"Yes but you can say that I persuaded him to take a holiday if you know what I mean"

"Okay then tell me when you are coming and all the details"

"Sure Em as soon as I know I will call you"

After saying our goodbyes for another half an hour after. I decided to cook some pasta as Thank you for Jane. She did tolerate my mood swings for a long time.

"Hey what that smell" came Jane's voice over Rihana's voice.

"Thats my friend is a thank you smell. Fettuccine Alfredo special order for you"

"Em you didn't have to"

"Well I couldn't think of anyone who would have let me stay with them after all that crying sessions and bad company"

"The best thing now is that you are feeling better" she said looking at me in concern

"Well come on lets eat. All that cooking made me hungry" I said laughing

She didn't even wait for me to complete the sentence before making a plate for herself and digging in.

Right now eating fettuccine and watching friends with Jane is all the therapy that I needed to feel like my self again I don't know what would have I done without her.

After eating we watched an episode or two of friends then I left Jane to do the dishes upon her request and went to sleep.

I woke up the next morning from the sound of the door bell.

Minutes after I heard 2 well known voices I decided it is time to wake up. I found both Jane and Michael in the kitchen talking loudly about a football match while eating a sandwich.

I couldn't help but notice that both of them are wearing sports gear. Michael was the first to notice me. I watched as his smile stretched some more.

"Good morning sleeping beauty. Did you sleep well" said Michael teasing

"well truth be told I couldn't sleep from your voices, it was so loud" I said smiling

"then go and change you are coming with us" said Jane as he was finishing the last bite of his sandwich

"where are we going"

"playing football of course. Go and wear sports clothes as you are going to play with us"

At this words I went and got changed it has been a long time since I last played. Still remember that the last time that I played was 2 years ago in Thanksgiving with my cousins. Even though Brad ,my cousin, broke his legs and we spent the whole day in the hospital eating the turkey in the emergency room.

Truth be told I can't actually play football I was always the last one to be picked to make both teams even and that didn't change a bit.

Sure the boys and Jane were calm and gave me time to adjust to the game but who am I kidding I am a wreck.

After hours of playing  I decided that I have had enough. I went and sat on a bench watching Jane and Michael with a couple of their friends playing.

I found out how those couple of weeks really helped me. My spirits are finally lifting up. My mind was always wandering about the idea of calling my family myself instead of Jane calling them every couple of days to give them my whereabout.

"hey Emma want to eat ice cream" I found Jane and Michael looking at me blocking the sun that I was enjoying.

"sure where did your friends go" noticing for the first time that there is only the three of us.

"They left as it is getting late now" said Jane. With that the three of us walked side by side to the ice cream parlor.

After 10 minutes with Jane deciding the flavor that she wants we finally walked out the parlor with a cone in each of our hands.

Halfway to home, Michael suddenly stopped walking

" This is were we separate." He said sensing my question.

"I am sorry to say that I can't see you next week as it is going to be a busy week for me" He said looking at me. With that I turned my head and looked the other way feeling guilty for the sadness that had overcome me after knowing that I wont be seeing him.

Feeling relieved that Jane answered "No problem Mike. Don't even think about it see you when you are free"

"Well goodbye for now"he said with a sigh while starting to turn the other way to go.

"bye" I said quickly and decided to make my dash with Jane hot on my heels.

"What was that" asked Jake

"What" I asked innocently

"You trying not to look into Micks eyes and then short answers and lastly leaving like that" she said listing which a smile showing.

"After what happened. I don't think about Michael that way. We are just friends" I insisted

"Em, there is something I should tell you"

"Jane please if its about Michael and that day then I don't want to hear it. I don't want to repeat the history." and with that the silent fell around us while we were walking back to the apartment.