Attempts

Chapter 12

Sitting in the park closing my eyes feeling the warm sun kissing my skin and being tickled with the leaves that was all the peace that I wanted. What I have been looking for in this whole vacation what i needed to do to escape.

That's my healing point. Here I can really think, no one to pressure me, to see where I am I didn't know that what I wanted was to be alone away from anyone. For the past month I have been staying with Jane for the fear of staying alone thinking that someone's comfort and shoulder to cry on was all I needed. I don't mean to be ungrateful it was relaxing and Jane was a big support but now I just need to think.

That's why the next morning I woke up early, took a walk alone around the neighborhood till I found this park filled with trees, flowers and lakes, made my phone airplane mood, set the alarm for 2 hours later  to reach the house on time and get ready.

The first thought that came to my mind is the conversation with my dad the other day.

'Emma darling" called my dad while coming out of the patio door to the garden

"Yes dad"

"Honey I think it's time to talk about what happened in Seattle"

" dad I really don't want to talk about it"

"But we should Emma, please just listen to me"

" I know how stressful you have been with college and everything and I know that your mum and I haven't been the best parents. But we love you and we kept it as a secret out of fear that it will affect your progress"

"Do you think that you protected me by keeping it a secret for this whole years. Do you still think that I am the young girl who won't take any bad news. Dad for years all I thought about is that you didn't care about me and that the hospital and all those conferences are way more important. I always worked hard trying to get your approval, did everything right and perfect as much as I can. There is no reasonable reason for what you and mum did"

"We love you and were really scared of your reaction. I know I made a mistake and I know how much your mother sacrificed for your happiness. Honey we didn't know if what we did was right or wrong. When I talked with your mum about it for the first time we thought that not telling you yet was the right thing to do. It was hard having to live with someone you don't love and pretending to be a happy couple, hiding it from everyone even Evilyn my wife took it upon herself not to say it to anyone just for your sake. Believe me it was hard but then it became more of a routine which was easier and here we are." He said looking at me with rim of tears in his eyes. My father has always been a strong man who can hide his feelings. That's the first time to see him so fragile.

That look on my father's face won't leave my mind it kind of made me feel guilty.

Its time to take actions and change things but first I have to keep my mind in place till we complete this wedding then start solving.

3 hours later I was in the house and being late wasn't the plan but I couldn't help but get lost as usual.

"Emma, you are not ready yet the wedding is about to start" yelled Lauren loudly

"Well you look beautiful" I couldn't help but say. She really did look pretty in the red one shoulder off dress

"Why thank you. I always do" she said with smile softening her face.

"Don't worry I will go get ready right now"

In a record time I took my shower, got dressed, finished my hair and doing the last touches of makeup.

I gave a quick look on the mirror and liked what I see

My yellow knee length backless dress and my black sandals fit me well with my loose and wavy hair and the light makeup I can finally say that I am ready for the wedding.

When I came down I found uncle Mat talking to dad, as I descend both of them look at me

"I don't get it how are you still single" said uncle Mat with laughter

"who said that I am single"

"I wish that you are lying" said dad with hint of warning "you look beautiful honey"

"Thanks dad and you look handsome, same goes for you uncle"

"Well darling, I don't like-"

"We are late for the service, lets head for the cars please" said Joana, my aunt.

"yes, lets" said uncle Mat with determination

It didn't take us long to reach the beach where the wedding will take place.

It lookes amazing with a blue board saying "Happily ever after starts here"

And upon entering there was  white flowers with small touches of red ones scattered through the whole path. At the end there was white fabric, draped over bamboo support poles where the vows will take place.

The refreshments are placed on the left side and variety of finger food on the right. Everything looks perfect.

What we love the most about the wedding is the ability that the vibes create making you forget about your problems and only concentrating on the happiness of the groom and bride.