Attempts

Chapter 14

Upon arriving the house I kissed my dad and uncle Mat goodbye and took the stairs two at time to reach the door faster, entering the house looking for mum

"MUM" I yelled not finding her.

"In the kitchen" came her voice after a second of suspicion that she is in the hospital and that the house is empty.

I entered the kitchen to find mum getting a lemon cake out of the oven.

"You are finally back" she said hugging me

"I am sorry mum for the way I acted, I shouldn't have gone to New York and left at that time as you needed me like I needed you" I said tearing a little

"No Em i am sorry I should have told you sooner you are not a young girl anymore. You grew up to be the most beautiful woman but I am still treating you as a young one. I know that you would have handled the truth but I was the one who didn't want to believe it. I want everything to go as it always is without any change. I am the selfish one"

We stood in the middle of the kitchen hugging for a long time, crying, feeling each other's pain.

"I think thats enough drama for one day" said mum laughing

"I believe so too, but I want you to promise me no more secrets"

"well I can promise that no more secrets that will affect your life"

"I can live with that"

She grabbed my hand and turned to walk out of the kitchen to the living room "so come on lets have some cake and tea, I want to know everything that happened in the wedding" she looked at me excited like a 6 year old getting a candy making me laugh.

"Patrick didn't step on her toes even once" I said laughing

"Really, did he take dance classes" she exclaimed and with that we continued our chatter for quite some time

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5 days had passed since I got home I caught up with my mum who took those days off to stay with me, went to visit dad's house and met Eveliyn and Louis , dad's wife and his son. It actually went pretty well even though I wanted to hate them but I couldn't, I even found some similarities between Louis and me.

Everything went great until this morning when I woke up alone with mum returning to the hospital and Sophia cleaning that I started to think about Michael. I know that I left him promising that I will call him and it has been 2 weeks that went by neither calling nor taking his calls.

After 3 hours of deciding what to do I got the courage to call him

"Emma" I missed his voice.

"Hi Michael"

"i have been worried sick. if it wasn't for Jane, I would have come to Spain looking for you" he did sound worried.

"Don't worry I am fine"

"when are you coming"

"Thats why I called I wanted to tell you myself that I am in Seattle till the rest of the vacation" I said in small voice suddenly feeling doubt about my decision

"Okay its fine. I can come and visit you in Stanford. I have never been but we can make it work. We ca-"

"I don't think its a good idea" I said cutting him trying to hide my shaky voice.

"What do you mean" he asked quietly in a voice that makes my heart break a little

"Michael I am in a part in my life that I am lost. Everything with my parents finally started to be better. Right now I just want to concentrate on my future and making things right with them. I like you a lot and thats why I don't want to be unfair with you. I believe that if we did try our relationship now, I will just cause you pain as I have others priorities thats going to take my time. I know that maybe when I am ready you won't be here, maybe you would have found someone who you will love. Maybe you will forget all about me. But I just can't do that to you, be with you while not giving effort on our relationship because I can't promise you anything these days."

"Emma, it has been 7 years since I saw you last and my love for you didn't change a bit. I understand where you are coming from but know that I will always wait for you. I made a mistake in the past which costed me being away from you all those years. I can bear another few till you are ready that's the least that I can do. Plus if it's fate we will find a way." My tears were running a river and I was trying hard to hold my sobs as I don't want to hurt him more.

"Just promise me that you will always do what makes you happy. Nothing deserves your sadness."

"I promise" and with that we hung up the phone with no idea when I will hear his voice again.

I decided that I will concentrate first on what is important from now on. Somethings have to be postponed as I just have one chance with them. I can't rush all at the same time, I have to be patient. Everything has its own time as Leo Tolstoy said "The most powerful warriors are patience and time".

THE END