Braylen is torn by the definition of Love and sets out to figure out what love is and find its true definition.
He writes this book recording his thoughts and emotions and making it an easier way to come clean.
He wants to get rid of this heavy bur...
After being in my previous relationship I came to the conclusion that I would just be single and not worry about anything or anyone, or so I thought. I figured it was time to get in touch with some old friends. I downloaded Snapchat and made a new account and everything was great but things got even better when a girl named Niema added me.
I then began messaging her wondering who she was turns out we are complete and total strangers to each other. She asked me for a picture to see what I looked like so I sent her one. Had to make sure it was a good one first impressions are everything. She then sent me ones of her. I was totally baffled when I saw how beautiful she was. I told her " I only saw one star in the sky that night, the most heavenly person I'd ever seen told me she'd be outside, shinning, shimmering, oh so bright."
Niema was the only person that I'd liked and we've never even met in person. Hundreds of miles away states apart, but she just is on my mind everyday.
No.. no no no, I told myself that I wasn't focused on anyone or anything but somehow some stranger managed to swoop in and posses my whole mind and fill it with herself. I then proceeded to talk to her knowing what I was falling into.
I began reminiscing about our friendship, going back through our messages. Wondering if I tried to hard or wasn't slik enough, I don't even know what type of guys she's into. Am I trying too hard to be something she likes instead of just being myself? Hundreds of questions filled my head as I stared at a picture of her wondering could this ever be mine?
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Her skin, her hair, her lips, her eyes? Her style, her decisiveness and self esteem that all play a role in her persona. Very lovely and elegant but tall firm and long strides to make a point. What's not to like.
I do not have anything to give her. I do not have a promise of anything. I do not have the promise that I can say I love her for I do not know if what I'm feeling is lust or love.
I am on a journey and along that journey you meet people for better or worse and I've met tons of people all lessons some still friends I'm hoping that Niema is a friend for now a loved one next and forever and a lesson that I never forget.
I gave in and I asked her out. I told her how I felt about her and that I wanted her. " want me how," she said. I responded saying,
" So I want you as in want you to be my girl. And that's why I've been trying so hard and being so out there with you. I really only think about you nowadays well you and the game and God lol but that's besides the point I like you for you all that you've shown and told me about your self even through the way you text me. Your forward and firm and you seem serious about school and about your business Nd I like that. you seem funny and fun to hang around I mean your even pretty very pretty. And basically to answer your question, (finally) I want you to be my ya know my uhh... Girl.. girlfriend." ( word for word )
She then replied, " let me think about it hunny , i really like that you took time to write this , your a very educated male and i like that and i am bout my business i am currently working on songs and stocks a the moment."
She may have postponed my question but, I think she likes me back fellas!!!
Our journey together is just beginning as we go through our days just as friends. For right now, but I have a feeling things will change.
