The One?

Chapter 5 entitled

Couple days had passed and me and mckenna were texting more now than ever. I used to really like her but after she found eyzeyah I was losing hope more and more. I told myself that I was over her but there was still a little bit of her left in my mind. Sometimes I find myself Hoping we will get back together, sometimes I find myself seducing another girl knowing it's not right.

When texting Mckenna I throw in slick comment to hint to her that I still like you. It never works or she just chooses not to respond to them.

Every now and then I ask about eyzeyah to see where their relationship is. They seemed to have been having problems and she'd come to me for advice which was hard at first I didn't want to do it. However after seeing how much he made her happy and how much she cared about him I couldn't just sit by and do nothing. I couldn't just sit here in my feelings because she has another man, so I helped and I still help it's what friends are for.

A while ago they agreed to take a break. They promised they would tell each other if they found someone else. I saw they as opportunity to get Mckenna back.

Today she told me that she had talked to him for the first tine in a while and she'd brought up their relationship first. She was worried she'd make him feel someway since the soul purpose for the break was to focus more on God. She'd told me how she really felt about him and it opened my eyes. It destroyed the broken half of me renewing the better half as the whole. What they have is special I don't want to come in between that. The way she feels about him is... is... well you don't want to be the reason why it didn't work. Even if I did manage to get her back I wouldn't be able to love and comfort her the way he did knowing I was scheming the whole time I was giving her advice. I decided to change my motive as she continued to spill her feelings for him to me.

"Honestly, i'm still sooo surprised that he likes me. like, when i first got to LH, he was one of the first people i actually had a conversation with and when i first saw him, i thought he was really cute (still do obviously lol) but anyway and then him and i made up a handshake so when we saw each other in the hallway we would do our handshake and we would talk sometimes in the hallway and like i already said, i thought he was really cute but i told myself "nah, someone like him would never like me" because he seemed like part of the popular group and coming from cabot, i wasn't popular. or at least i wouldn't consider myself that way, so i told myself he would never like me or never think i was cute or nun like that. and now, here we are... and it's still crazy to me."
(Word for word)

After reading that. How strongly she felt about him I had to make sure I was helping her to better her relationship. Eyzeyah has done some things but only because he has been in a tough spot in life lately. Losing a loved one, people in his ear, and telling lies on him. It's making he's still able to hold on as tight as he is and I wish them the best in everything In everything they face and accomplish in life on their journey.

As me and Mckenna continued to talk.
( as friends)
I came to the conclusion that our relationship is truly Love not Lust. However, I love her in a way that is not sexual but friendly I love Mckenna because she is apart of my Lighthouse family along with Ayeka, Asiah, Kyle, and a numerous amount of other people. We all strongly Love each other, but in our relationship we gave love it's own definition to describe how close we are to one another.

After finishing my conversation with McKenna. A new journey had started to begin.