twitter dms - a.i.

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DM's to @nightfallash: 

@ashywashy: maria

12:23 AM

@ashywashy: i know ive promised you not to hurt myself ever since that day

12:23 AM

@ashywashy: and im 256 days clean now thanks to you

12:24 AM

@ashywashy: i love you so much and i dont think ive ever been happier with the life ive been living with you

12:24 AM

@ashywashy: as much as id love to stay

12:24 AM

@ashywashy: i have to go, maria. i really do. i swear its not you, its just... me. stupid cliche line, but its the truth. its driving me crazy. i cant stay here anymore.

12:25 AM

@ashywashy: u know how much i fucking love you. you are my life. i love you more than ive ever loved myself, and id do anything for you

12:25 AM

@ashywashy: these 8 months have been great with you, maria, but its seriously time to go

12:26 AM

@ashywashy: the hate and everything... its too much. people expect of me way too much. i... i try to be happy, and with you i am, but ive just realized that im always going to stay upset. 

12:26 AM

@ashywashy: theres always something thats going to trigger me. no matter what it is. im mentally ill, maria, and i dont think theres anything to fix it.

12:26 AM

@ashywashy: so tell all my fans, my bandmates, my family... how much i love them. and tell the whole world how i appreciate them recognizing my band and i's music. 

12:27 AM

@ashywashy: its an honor and im seriously so grateful for it

12:27 AM

@ashywashy: and you...? i literally have no words. ur my everything, baby, u really are. i tried treating u like a princess, gave you my everything... i tried to make u happy, and im so glad u've stopped self harming

12:27 AM

@ashywashy:ur the most beautiful person to walk on this earth. i love u so fucking much, theres literally nothing that can top my love for u

12:28 AM

@ashywashy:and im so so so damn sorry if i ever mistreated you, or got angry at you. you didnt deserve it. you deserve the best and nothing but the best.

12:28 AM

@ashywashy: i want u to go and find someone who'll treat you like royalty

12:28 AM

@ashywashy:i want them to make you happy. and as much as this fucking kills to say... just please move on.

12:28 AM

@ashywashy:i love you so much

12:29 AM

@ashywashy: im sorry

12:29 AM

@ashywashy: goodbye, maria. one day i hope you forgive me.

12:30 AM

A/N: sorry guys i changed my mind lol this is the last chAPTER SORRY I LOVE U ALL SO MUCH

BTW I HIT 60K+ AND 1K FOLLOWERS WOWOEEJWF IM LIKE??? OK THX 4 READING EVERYONE I LOVE U ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF U EVER NEED ME IM HERE 4 U I PROMISE OMFG I LOVEF U ALL

ps read my other stories bc luke and mikey are daddy af!!! and im posting a calum story like u guys wanted but unfortunately its not thriller bc i dont write thriller!! )-: SORRY!! ily all!!