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epilogue

i loved him so much.

i cant believe hes gone. i just cant. its been 76 days since he left, and my brain still hadn't processed the fact that he's gone.

why?

why would he do this? why would he just leave? he was so happy... or at least he said he was. he hadn't hurt him self in more than 200 days, so why would he do that?

dear god, please answer me.

why have you taken the one that meant the whole fucking universe to me?

was he supposed to be with you? was he supposed to enjoy life over there? should i join him?

his fans... i... are breaking. he doesnt know how many fans have repeated his actions, knowing that the only thing that kept them was him and his band. should i go support his family and best friends? or should i just... leave?

oh god, i loved him... and now im lost.

i hope one day, i just wake up from this nightmare. please, tell me this is a nightmare. i miss him. i miss his touch. i miss his laugh. his smile. his voice. i miss him.

he said he'd never leave. he said he'd always be here. he said he'd try and make me happy. he said he was happy. he said he'd always hold me... and that if i ever needed him, he'd be here for me.

if he can break his promise, then why cant i?

A/N: this story means the world to me because i relate so much to it. the fact that many people appreciate this story as well makes me really happy. so thank you for reading this. i love you all... so much. you have no idea how incredibly happy you all make me. a lot of you wanted to reach me through social networks so ill list them all now:

instagram: ruaelbashir

twitter: irwxnftbizzle

kik: fa.ye

snapchat: its.faye

aaaaaand yeah. dont be afraid to talk to me - ill be nice and i love meeting new people.

if you ever need me, im only a PM away. i love u all.