The Leave Of Love

Chapter - 10

"Ek baar nahi, ye dil sau baar he tuta
Phir bhi shauk mohabbat ka abhi tak na chuta"

May, 2017

Ishita's POV

I never felt so much for a guy except Rohan. I didn't knew what was happening with me.
But I could understand that whatever was happening shouldn't have happened.

I can never keep someone in place of Rohan.
Then why was I feeling like that for Shivam?

I was confused.

Moreover, I didn't knew what was his feelings for me.

"Mohabbat ka khumaar kuchh aisa he
Ki iss zakhmi dil ko pata he ki wo phir tootega
Phir bhi ye nasamajh dil hazaaron gham sehke
Uss mohabbat ke pichhe hi bhagega"

Neither could I forget Rohan nor could I erase my feelings for Shivam.

Shivam's POV

When I met Ishita for the first time the thing that circled my mind was "Why does this girl studies so much! Can't she take some break to talk to me?"

Initially she used to ignore me. And sometimes me too!

But as the time passed, we became close.
We were so intimate that even the teacher used to think that we were in relation.
I didn't had any problem with that though.
I wouldn't have mind if she would have been my girlfriend!

She was a sweet, cute girl with a skin tone as white as milk.
I liked the way she used to talk.
I liked the way she used to smile.
I liked the way she used to look at me with her big lotus eyes.

And then I realised......I..I had started liking her!! I even thought of proposing her.

She used to talk a lot about Rohan. Initially I used to ignore that. I thought that it was merely a childishness!

But when I realised that she still love him, I stepped back from my decision of proposing her. I felt that she would never accept me.

Ishita's POV

Adrija, one of my frnd in that coaching centre. I told her about my feelings for Shivam.
She suggested me to confess it to him.
I wouldn't have mind proposing him.
But the thing that stopped me was......I couldn't erase Rohan from my heart!

* * *

A few weeks before the starting of Durga Puja I decided to propose Shivam. That day as I left for coaching, some things were constantly roaming inside my mind.

I was nervous. What would happen if he rejects me?
Will our frndship be ruined?
Once I thought of stepping back.
And Rohan was also another reason.
But then in the next moment I recollected that he only had advised me to move on.

* * *

As I reached the coaching centre, I gathered my guts to surrender my feelings to him.
My heart started beating like a drum as I walked near him.

I was stunned to realise that I used to have the same feeling when I used to approach Rohan!

I was about to let the cat out of the bag when Adrija called me from behind.
"Ishita I want to talk to you" she said hurriedly nd dragged me out from there.

I was confused about her actions.
Before I could even question her, she spoke up.
"Ishu, Shivam.... Shivam proposed me today!!!" she said nervously.
"I don't have any feelings for him. I..I rejected him" she said again in one breath.

I looked at her for a moment nd then looked at Shivam who was talking to some other boys.
There was no excitement inside me. The shiver which was running down my spine just a minute ago was vanished.
I felt as if someone had poured cold water in my fire of ecstasy.

I just wanted to say him "What a choice!".
I wasn't heartbroken though!
Why would I be?
I knew it from the beginning that the relationship wasn't possible.
Whatever I was thinking wasn't supposed to happen.
It was good that before he could reject my proposal this thing happened.

Hence we remain confined to 'only frnds' tag.
But it seemed to get stronger day by day. Yes, that frndship!